Low Lumbus

Dear Mama❤️on this day last year our family lost you to gun violence💔it’s something you didn’t deserve Ik you was stressing but was that the best relief?😕I ask god a lot of questions like what was the purpose of taking you from us and many more still haven’t found them answers til this day I always wonder what could I have done to make sure you was still here I literally think about you everyday sometimes at first I didn’t even care what even happened in my personal life I wanted to give up so so many times😖 I guess it’s out my hands tho this has been one of the toughest years of my life if not the toughest😓 smiling in people face behind a mask of mental physical and spiritual damage😣I lost myself fr people say you watching over me but I rather have you in physical form all the shit I’m doing it don’t really hit the same like it’s supposed to is it really a purpose behind it anymore I’m not afraid to express how I feel when it come to you idk man my mind just everywhere but ima keep trying cuz you was proud of that shit❤️you was grateful of me❤️love you the most🫶🏽