Sara Roach

happy heavenly birthday mom 😇🐞🐞

it's crazy to think it's been 9 months without you. there hasn't been a day that's gone by that i haven't thought what you would be doing if you were here. every decision i make is based on what I think you would say. I hope you would be proud of me. so many things have happened since you've been gone and i hope you are looking down smiling at me. to this day i know it'll be okay because it was your time to go, you fought so hard and it wasn't fair that you were fighting to not be sick. on the last days we spent together you fought for me. you stayed for me. you wouldn't leave this earth until you saw me graduate in someway and if I didn't convince you it was okay that you didn't have to see me go to prom I swear you would have fought some more. even in all the pain you were in you wouldn't go until you heard my voice saying it was okay. one of the last talks we had I asked you what should I look for you in. and all you could say was "release the ladybugs". I said mom you want me to look you for in ladybugs? and you said "please release the ladybugs". So i took that as in each ladybug i see it's you saying hello. On the day you passed it was earth day and that night while everyone was sitting around talking about their memories with you on the news there was a group of kids releasing ladybugs for earth day. Now I am not sure how you knew or what coincidence that was but that was my sign that you were okay now. I look for your hello everyday in ladybugs. there are so many things that I haven't been able to find in anyone to replace and i never will. you were a light in so many peoples lives and im so proud that i was able to call you my mother. hearing all the things you did with so many people and everything single one of them left them with the biggest smile. you had the gift to make every person you met feel comfortable and i always knew with just looking in your eyes that you would make every okay no matter what. i love you mom happy heavenly birthday🪽