Alex Chon

아버지…I just want everyone to know what a great dad he is. He never wanted anyone to worry about him during this time and was always so positive about everything he was going through. While reading all the texts that he sent to his friends and family on his last day, he was telling people not to worry about him. Even if he knew something may have been wrong, he wouldn’t let us know it.
Cleaning out his room, it was shocking to see how many things he kept from my brother and I’s childhood. From clothes we wore in high school, to pictures, and gifts we gave him growing up. I could feel how much he cared for us through all the things left in his room. My brother and I never had to question his love for us. He was always thinking of us. The last time we saw him, he was telling us to take care of ourselves and not to think about him. He would always assure us that he was ok and to stop worrying. He wanted us to live our lives as if he wasn’t sick. He knew how much we worried and he always made a point to say how comfortable and pain free he was and I believed him, because he wanted me to believe him. Now it pains me to know he wasn’t ok…
What I’ll miss most about my dad is seeing him with my kids. He loved Blake and Cam more than they will ever know. His wallpaper, social media profile pic, his photo gallery in his phone… so much of it is Blake and Cam. Going through his phone, I saw that he literally saved every single photo I sent to him and he created albums to store them. He was the best 할아버지 to them and I know he would have always been there for them. Every time he would visit, he was very clear on why he was here, and that was to spend as much time with my kids. He loved them so much and it was so perfectly clear how much he cherished them.

While I have so many more thoughts and regrets right now, while I feel broken, my heart is heavy, and I’m in pain…. I can rest assured in knowing God. He is my comfort, my peace, and assurance during my affliction. Who am I to question his plans??

I will dearly miss my dad but I know I will have his memories. While I wish I had more time, I will forever be grateful for the 36 years. He truly was the best ❤️