Avishav Maidler

@avishav

a year ago

Posted On: August 3rd 2025, 09:17 am

אתמול הייתי בכיכר החטופים, אחרי לפחות שלושה חודשים שלא הייתי שם. בצהריים אפילו גיא שאל אותי אם אני הולכת ואמרתי לו שאני גמורה ואני לא בטוחה. כשהגעתי לשם, כמו בכל פעם, הגוף שלי כאב. יש אנרגיה כזאת שנמצאים קרוב לכל כך הרבה אנשים וצועקים יחד שהגוף מתחבר לאיזה תדר שהוא לא מרגיש כל יום. קמתי היום בבוקר והרגשתי שהגוף שלי צריך לפרוק.. להוציא את הכאב הזה החוצה… איזה פריבלגיה יש לי… יש אמהות, נשים וילדים שתקועים עם הכאב הזה יום יום, שעה שעה… ויש לנו אחים שעדיין נמצאים בעזה. הלוואי ולא נצטרך יותר ללכת לכיכר החטופים, אבל כל זמן שהם לא בבית אני מקווה שאזכור את התחושה הזאת ואגיע לשם לתמוך במי שאין לו דרך אמיתית לפרוק את הכאב.

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a year ago

dikis

🍋🌈🍃

Ok, some real talk. I accidentally stepped away from Instagram for a month and I have to be honest: it’s really hard to think about going back. For many reasons! Part of it is that posting to Instagram leads to scrolling on Instagram, and I have 100% settled into the fact that aimlessly scrolling is one of the largest sources of anxiety in my life. Not just because of the content I end up consuming on here (which, let’s agree, oftentimes is stressful and just plain nuts) but because of the inner knowing that every hour spent here without purpose is an hour of my life lost. When I don’t post to Instagram, I don’t scroll on Instagram.

The other part is the longing I feel inside to share only what is honest and unfiltered and true. I miss the old days when posting to this app was more about feeling and writing than fast-paced clickbait. I hate dealing with the algorithm and I hate editing videos (more hours lost!!). There are incredible content creators on this app who do such a great job at storytelling through video and who really love doing it - I’m not one of them. And also; who am I sharing for these days? The joy and beauty of sharing something intimate gets lost when the people it’s intended for (you!) don’t see it. It’s why the podcast is the only platform I truly love sharing from; everyone who listens listen on purpose. And I really love the feeling of creating something with intention, and the feeling of having it received in the same way.

So I’m trying a new thing. Can I pop in and share, and head back out? And can what I share just be whatever? Like me in my pajamas holding this 18-pound vase I made with an Instagram caption about how I don’t know how to be on Instagram?😅

Life is really precious. And short! This vase took me 9 hours to make and not a minute of it felt like time I should have spent doing something else.

I’d like for all of my hours to feel that way. How about you?

x

did you all see how sickening @1800andrewdahling painted me?

beat.

Avishav Maidler

@avishav

dikis

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