Olivia Jordan

night cap 🍸

July me last year and July me this year are two different people. And that’s okay, I expect to do a lot of changing and growing in the next few years, and probably for the rest of my life. None of these changes went according to my perfectly color-coded calendar and that’s okay. I’ve experienced so many new emotions (many at once). I catapulted into partial independence, lost myself, isolated, found a community, and lost myself some more. I struggle with not knowing how the relationships around me will evolve, not knowing where any of us will end up. The end of one era and the start of others within days of each other. I tried curling into a ball and trying to let it all pass me by, but that didn’t work.

Now all I can do is try. Try to connect. Try to be consistent. Try to work on myself and give so much grace it doesn’t make any sense.

So cheers to independent thoughts and night caps in Spain. 🥂