Billy A. Valo

I’m looking
For anything
A sign
A fucking miracle
To let me know you’re ok
It’s all so much mom
I wish you were here
I cry a lot about you
There’s so much you
could’ve helped me with.
So I’ll just stay here
At this bench
Alone
Waiting
Hoping
Wishing
This wasn’t the end of you
And the end of our journey together.
It’s been 3 years without you
You were and are my best friend
And I’ll always, ALWAYS hold you in my heart.
And I promise mom
I promise to actually live life
And have one
I’m so sorry that you’re gone mom.
I had that dream again,
That one in the forest
Where we both sit on that faded old bench
But you never say a word
Like the words aren’t there anymore
But I stay, as long as I can
Hoping you say just one syllable
So I can remember the sound of your voice
It was the most beautiful sound
But now, it’s just a fleeting memory
One that no matter how hard I try
I can’t grab hold of it
Please visit, again
So that I may hope to see you
One last time
I want to thank you
For giving me
The most beautiful soul
And the most unique gifts
A son could ask for
The life I live
Is so much better and more important because you were In it
You taught me love
You gave me hope
I could call you when a band released a new song
I could text you when I was feeling my lowest
You made every single thing feel a little less lonely and a little brighter
Thank you mom
And happy heavenly birthday
From the bottom of my heart
I love you
And everything you ever taught me
And I can only hope to dream again
So until we meet just one last time
I’ll stand here, waiting for you