Lara Maria | Faith + Business

Look at what the Lord has done. I’m never going back to the way I was… Thank God I’m free 😭🙌

For months, I was carrying a burden I was never called to carry. I was stuck in my own pain, and cycles of depression and heaviness kept hitting me like waves. I’d catch my breath for a moment, then another wave would come. 😩

I was so busy trying to stay in control, allowing fear to have such a big place in my life, while at the same time telling myself to “trust God.” Fear had gripped me so tightly that I felt like I couldn’t breathe.

Then one night, God met me at the altar.

I realized I had been so busy trying to be Him. Trying to be “Jehovah Jireh.” Trying to be THE provider. 🤦‍♀️

But that was never my role.
He’s the provider, not me.
& Not by my works, but by His grace.

I was carrying a weight that He had already carried to the cross for me 😭

What He wanted from me was a heart fully surrendered to Him. A heart that would be obedient to His Word and not waver. A heart that would keep its eyes fixed on Him.

And in that moment, a huge weight lifted. That was the beginning of my journey to freedom.

September became a month of surrender, revelation, healing, wisdom, and so many miracles. I can finally breathe again. And it all started with surrendering and giving God my “yes” again. 😆

Time after time, chance after chance, He continues to show me mercy and grace that I truly don’t deserve.

I realized that I had been holding onto fear and doubt more tightly than I was holding onto Him.

So when I sing, “Thank God I’m free,” I’m not just singing a song. I’m declaring my testimony.

I was bound by fear but now I’m free 🤍