Freya W

DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE BEGGING SOMEONE TO STOP, AND THEY JUST KEEP PUSHING?

I'm autistic. And there's something I desperately need people to understand.

My brain has limits that I cannot simply talk myself out of.

Imagine your brain is a computer. Too many programs are running. It's overheating. The screen is freezing. Everything is screaming ERROR.

And somebody just keeps pressing buttons.

Again.

Again.

AGAIN.

You're telling them to stop. You're explaining what's happening. You can FEEL yourself getting closer to the point where you can't process another thing.

But they don't listen.

They argue. They question. They push harder.

And then it happens.

Your brain crashes.

For me, that overload can become so unbearable that I hit my own head.

Do you understand how much it takes for me to admit that publicly?

Do you understand how devastating it is to know you're reaching your limit, communicate that clearly, and still have your words ignored?

And then comes the judgment.

She's crazy.

She's dramatic.

She's a bitch.

Nobody asks how many times I said STOP.

Nobody asks how hard I fought to communicate before I became overwhelmed.

They only see the moment I couldn't take any more.

And THAT is the part that breaks my heart.

Because I'm not asking the world to walk on eggshells around me.

I'm asking people to understand that my autistic brain doesn't process relentless frustration the same way theirs might.

I'm asking them to recognize that when someone says they're overwhelmed, those words MATTER.

I'm asking them to stop treating an autistic person's breaking point like a character flaw.

I'm a mother. I'm an artist. I'm a woman with dreams, feelings, intelligence, and a whole life beyond my autism.

I deserve to be heard BEFORE I'm overwhelmed. Not judged AFTER.

And so does every autistic person who's ever been called difficult when they were desperately trying to communicate.

How many times does someone have to say "I'm overwhelmed" before the world finally listens?

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