birsifuni | بيرسيفوني

07|09 • Valerie • 🌚

we were planning to share how it feels to be back «home» this week. to look back and ahead as @azzyarmagan so gracefully did. but I am lying here on my carpet and I just can‘t find the words.

now you have to know that this carpet very rarely fails to help me find the words. having this carpet in my apartment is also largely what has kept me connected to my grandfather from Tripoli throughout the past years.

I have found many words on this carpet. I fill page after page, night after night, sometimes. but not today. today I found no words at all, and certainly none on «being back home».

and then I realized that I can’t find the words because I don’t feel like I am «home».

and the point is that I hope we may embrace the wisdom in such empty pages. today, tonight, tomorrow – whenever the words don’t find us or we don’t find them. because if only we listen, maybe there’s still something they’re telling us in their silence.

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@valmarouche