Paulette Ibeka

Exactly a year ago today I buried my nose in my work and neglected to recognize that my baby brother was fighting for his life behind closed doors a couple steps from my dining table now converted work station. Yes a broken healthcare system and some stubbornness contributed to what was now responsible for the excruciating pain that ultimately won the battle he was fighting. Yes, he should have avoided the street food that led to that last crisis he didn’t get out of. Yes, he should have mentioned that his friend turned GP told him that the back pain he was feeling was evidence that the ulcer may have hit a critical blood vessel. Yet, I should have stepped away from my work and insisted we seek a second opinion or even sat with him to pray or gist while he was on his bed. Perhaps I would have seen something that said this is nothing like all the other crisis before this one. Don’t do this to yourself Paulette it’s not healthy it will only depress you further. Fair point but I’m already a mess and struggling so I’ll post this for now (maybe I delete it later), as a reminder to listen to the wise words of the Google CEO to drop my rubber ball and protect my glass balls. Cause mehn I dropped my porcelain ball and it shattered. I miss you Bro💔