𝙚𝙢𝙞𝙡𝙞𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙞

Hi again.
It’s been hard without you… I feel so strange at how fine and horrible I feel at the same time since you’ve been gone. Honestly though, I am glad you can rest and take it easy now. I’m sure it was hard for you when we were absent. I really wish I could’ve changed all that. Anyways.. I know there’s a lot of things I wish I could have changed but at the end of the day I just hope you live the rest of your life knowing I love and think about you every day. I know its selfish of me to say this, but please take care of the family while I am away. Make sure 婆婆 is able to feel your presence and energy. That she has the strength to be well and push forward better than ever. Please share your open mindedness with her and allow her to have a better understanding of how to communicate effectively. Allow her to express her true emotions not behind doors but with the family that loves her immensely. I’m sure you know what to do. Anyways damn, I’m not gunna keep going on and on telling you the things both you and I are aware of. Just please do what you can to give them strength and love. Sorry, I know that that is more than enough to ask for. I just hope I’ll be back soon to take over and provide whatever I can when I can again. I hope I come back more often so you can take breaks here and there. I am sorry that even though you finally got to rest in peace, you still never stopped working. I miss you so much and I hope that its just easier. Hopefully you and 舅舅 are at home enjoying the missed time. Hopefully you can still take it easy after all my goddamn requests.
Sleep well.
I love you
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P.S. I hope to see you sooner than later and that our time lasts longer then :/ and despite all this. Everyone is definitely super strong and frkn annoying as always so thats that. 😭smh u know the deal

Pps. Thank you for being the most generous loving person ik. U are truly the brightest light