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Posted On: January 2nd 2025, 04:57 pm
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These past 2 years, even this past year alone, have been some of the most impactful ones of my life. I'm finally living as myself, helping myself, and with the people I love.
I can't help but feel grateful and undeserving of all the love I've had from the people in my life. The ones who have stood by me, the ones who have helped me, the ones who comfort me, the ones who make me laugh, and the one who is my heart.
I've had a hard time of abandoning things in the past, for a while now. Stuff i dont want to think about, things I don't want to be. I've been blaming my younger self for everything, but really she was just a kid, a kid who is not violent, not a villain, not evil, but just a kid. An innocent kid. She doesn't deserve my anger because she protected me for 18 years the only way she knew how, by being "him". But even throughout all her struggles she still tried to smile, make others happy, enjoy things, even as it got more difficult. I'm so thankful to her, for protecting me, for going through so much drama, trauma, abuse from toxic friends, even grooming, because she kept me alive. She's why I'm here today and I'm so happy that I can keep living
To anyone seeing this who I left in the past in some form. Whether through distancing myself, separating physically, losing touch, etc, I just want you to know that even if at the time our friendships and relationships mightve been good or toxic and I wasn't honest about who I was and you might hate who I am now, but you deserve love and kindness and I hope you have it. To those of you who mightve caused me harm specifically and intentionally, I still hope that you get kindness and love to. I don't want to hate anymore, I don't want to hate others, I don't want to hate myself. If anyone wants to reach out to me my door is usually open, I'm sorry for things I've done in the past, but I'm always here
It's sometimes hard to feel like it's ok to be happy or that I'm deserving of all this, but I'm working on it one day at a time. I know my family, blood and found, are with me. Im still alive because of you all, I love you 🩷🩷 HERES TO THE NEW YEAR!
#mentalhealth #2025 #transbian #transgender #wlw #trans #family
I can't help but feel grateful and undeserving of all the love I've had from the people in my life. The ones who have stood by me, the ones who have helped me, the ones who comfort me, the ones who make me laugh, and the one who is my heart.
I've had a hard time of abandoning things in the past, for a while now. Stuff i dont want to think about, things I don't want to be. I've been blaming my younger self for everything, but really she was just a kid, a kid who is not violent, not a villain, not evil, but just a kid. An innocent kid. She doesn't deserve my anger because she protected me for 18 years the only way she knew how, by being "him". But even throughout all her struggles she still tried to smile, make others happy, enjoy things, even as it got more difficult. I'm so thankful to her, for protecting me, for going through so much drama, trauma, abuse from toxic friends, even grooming, because she kept me alive. She's why I'm here today and I'm so happy that I can keep living
To anyone seeing this who I left in the past in some form. Whether through distancing myself, separating physically, losing touch, etc, I just want you to know that even if at the time our friendships and relationships mightve been good or toxic and I wasn't honest about who I was and you might hate who I am now, but you deserve love and kindness and I hope you have it. To those of you who mightve caused me harm specifically and intentionally, I still hope that you get kindness and love to. I don't want to hate anymore, I don't want to hate others, I don't want to hate myself. If anyone wants to reach out to me my door is usually open, I'm sorry for things I've done in the past, but I'm always here
It's sometimes hard to feel like it's ok to be happy or that I'm deserving of all this, but I'm working on it one day at a time. I know my family, blood and found, are with me. Im still alive because of you all, I love you 🩷🩷 HERES TO THE NEW YEAR!
#mentalhealth #2025 #transbian #transgender #wlw #trans #family
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2 years agoserenity__eternity
If it wasn't clear, pictures 8-15 are younger me, from as old as 17 to as young as like 6 or something. The last picture is current day me
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