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Posted On: June 10th 2025, 03:38 pm
I know I’ve been quiet here for a while. It wasn’t planned, but it has been necessary. Life pulled me inward, and I followed. Over the last several months, I’ve been deep in my own process… I’m now in my studies of psychology, creating art behind the scenes, and facing parts of myself I’ve spent years gently approaching.
There were many paths in front of me, paths that looked easier, more familiar, more “aligned” with who I used to be. But I chose the one that felt the most uncomfortable, the most confronting, and the most true. The path of choosing *me*. Of honoring what my heart has been asking for, even when it hasn’t made sense to anyone else. Of slowly rebuilding the way I see my worth, not based on what I do for others, but on how I care for and show up for myself.
This season hasn’t been about showing up online, it’s been about showing up *here*, in real life, in real time, in the in-between spaces where growth is quiet and often messy.
I’ve been creating so much, art that I haven’t shared yet, because it needed to be just for me for a while. I’ve been learning to pour love inward, to move slower, to feel more honestly, and to stay present with whatever’s real in each moment. To just be the wild creature that I am.
To those of you who have stuck around, reached out, or sent love during my silence, thank you. Your support has reminded me that even when we go quiet, we are still held. That connection doesn’t disappear when words do. And that kind, patient presence speaks louder than we often realize.
Right now, I’m not rushing to figure everything out. I’m learning to trust this version of living, one that takes off the mask and is more about just *being*. All I know for sure is that the present moment is all we ever really have. And I’m doing my best to be in it, fully.
This is my first completed drawing of graphite in my first college art class. It feels so good, going back to the basics of shape and value. Tending to these raw beginnings is deeply grounding and inspiring a new ignition within my heart.
There were many paths in front of me, paths that looked easier, more familiar, more “aligned” with who I used to be. But I chose the one that felt the most uncomfortable, the most confronting, and the most true. The path of choosing *me*. Of honoring what my heart has been asking for, even when it hasn’t made sense to anyone else. Of slowly rebuilding the way I see my worth, not based on what I do for others, but on how I care for and show up for myself.
This season hasn’t been about showing up online, it’s been about showing up *here*, in real life, in real time, in the in-between spaces where growth is quiet and often messy.
I’ve been creating so much, art that I haven’t shared yet, because it needed to be just for me for a while. I’ve been learning to pour love inward, to move slower, to feel more honestly, and to stay present with whatever’s real in each moment. To just be the wild creature that I am.
To those of you who have stuck around, reached out, or sent love during my silence, thank you. Your support has reminded me that even when we go quiet, we are still held. That connection doesn’t disappear when words do. And that kind, patient presence speaks louder than we often realize.
Right now, I’m not rushing to figure everything out. I’m learning to trust this version of living, one that takes off the mask and is more about just *being*. All I know for sure is that the present moment is all we ever really have. And I’m doing my best to be in it, fully.
This is my first completed drawing of graphite in my first college art class. It feels so good, going back to the basics of shape and value. Tending to these raw beginnings is deeply grounding and inspiring a new ignition within my heart.
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a year agowwyskiel1
Beautiful, and I am proud of you taking this journey- and that you recognized you needed to!
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