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Posted On: December 31st 2025, 08:51 pm
I’m closing this year out with a lot more hope than I’ve felt in a while.
2025 brought several chapters of my life to a close, and in the aftermath of grief and trauma, I realized that I was still stuck in miserable rigidity. I was constantly falling short of my musical expectations, treating myself unkindly, even debating whether or not I had any right to call myself a singer anymore. On the day I made my Commercial Demo, I left the booth feeling like it was some of the most fun I’d had in my entire life. But realizing that it had been more fun than any singing I’d done in the last 7 years hurt; for once, I didn’t feel like I was tightrope walking, waiting to see how long it would take me to fall. It felt like…finally, someone just wanted to hear my voice for what it is. And then I realized that so much of that pressure was mostly self-imposed.
Operatic repertoire is magical. I love being another instrument in the orchestra, using my body in a way that feels so powerful. But I felt less worthy of it. As I ‘fell behind’ in my journey, I panicked more, tried to tighten my control on my art and my technique to make up for lost time and struggled harder. (Control is only an illusion, anyway.)
So I end the year reminding myself that if my path does not take me to the places I may have hoped to go, that there is still so much joy to be found as long as I move authentically, and with love.
In 2026, I will get to sing some of my favorite music with orchestra. I will get to sing characters that are near and dear to my heart. I will get to play video games where my voice is the one guiding the player along. I spent so long feeling as though embracing my versatility meant losing focus - but as I push through the fog, I realize it’s something I want to celebrate: myself, my voice, my artistry. The art of connection.
To all of you who support me, love me, teach me - thank you. I’m so grateful. And thank you to Star for this INSANELY ADORABLE ART??? Oh my LORDDD.
Anyway. Do what makes you happy with your one, precious life.
Happy New Year!
#newyear #music #opera #soprano #voiceover
2025 brought several chapters of my life to a close, and in the aftermath of grief and trauma, I realized that I was still stuck in miserable rigidity. I was constantly falling short of my musical expectations, treating myself unkindly, even debating whether or not I had any right to call myself a singer anymore. On the day I made my Commercial Demo, I left the booth feeling like it was some of the most fun I’d had in my entire life. But realizing that it had been more fun than any singing I’d done in the last 7 years hurt; for once, I didn’t feel like I was tightrope walking, waiting to see how long it would take me to fall. It felt like…finally, someone just wanted to hear my voice for what it is. And then I realized that so much of that pressure was mostly self-imposed.
Operatic repertoire is magical. I love being another instrument in the orchestra, using my body in a way that feels so powerful. But I felt less worthy of it. As I ‘fell behind’ in my journey, I panicked more, tried to tighten my control on my art and my technique to make up for lost time and struggled harder. (Control is only an illusion, anyway.)
So I end the year reminding myself that if my path does not take me to the places I may have hoped to go, that there is still so much joy to be found as long as I move authentically, and with love.
In 2026, I will get to sing some of my favorite music with orchestra. I will get to sing characters that are near and dear to my heart. I will get to play video games where my voice is the one guiding the player along. I spent so long feeling as though embracing my versatility meant losing focus - but as I push through the fog, I realize it’s something I want to celebrate: myself, my voice, my artistry. The art of connection.
To all of you who support me, love me, teach me - thank you. I’m so grateful. And thank you to Star for this INSANELY ADORABLE ART??? Oh my LORDDD.
Anyway. Do what makes you happy with your one, precious life.
Happy New Year!
#newyear #music #opera #soprano #voiceover
Comments (7)
10 months agoclausssue
A happy, healthy, music filled 2026 to you! I think your voice is amazing and so are you! Try to relax a bit. Sometimes the path we end up on but isn’t the one we wished for, takes us to a better place than we could imagine.
10 months agoclaytondbriggs
You rock, best friend, and so does your voice! 🤘🤘🤘 2026 will be an amazing year!
10 months agobialugal
Excited to see what 2026 has in store for you! Be free in your artistic journey 🫶
10 months agocheymwells
Oh my god I’m obsessed with this! You are incredible. Can’t wait to see what you do in 2026.
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