Welcome to my page, here’s a little about me. In 2018 my world shifted in a way that set everything in motion. A relationship that caused emotional & physical trauma became the catalyst for deep transformation. What began as a spiritual awakening became the start of a dark night of the soul & a journey of self discovery & healing.
At first, I focused on getting my life back, learning about who I was on a surface level, clearing my channel physically & emotionally. I stopped drinking, changed my lifestyle & removed people who were negatively impacting nervous system.
Things went deeper as I woke up to the conditioning and manipulation in the world, what we accept as “normal” realising how disconnected I become from myself, my body & life.
That awareness led me to Kundalini our own Shakti energy, the creative intelligent life force that moves through us all. What started as curiosity became devotion to deep inner work & meeting my shadows.
Then came 2025, Year of the Snake, everything that wasn’t aligned began to fall away. I was stuck in a similar situation again, a shell of myself, disconnected from my truth, enduring things emotionally that no one should, feeling trapped & unable to see a way out, but Shakti doesn’t mess with illusions, she reveals what can no longer stay. Like a snake shedding its skin, the false layers built from conditioning and survival stripped away. What should have broken me became my medicine.
The unravelling of this exposed trauma, survival patterns, triggers & wounds I hadn’t realised were running my life & repeating lessons. It wasn’t glamorous, I never resonated with the “love & light” side of the spiritual community,it felt like a distraction from confronting ourselves & integrating parts we’re taught to shame. Layer by layer, I began meeting the parts of myself I had abandoned, masked & silenced to survive.
Through Shakti energy transmissions, shadow work, nervous system regulation & theta healing, I rebuilt myself slowly. The transformation was profound & changed the direction of my life. I’ll share more about what came next in Part 2.
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Gracias. I understand why people describe ayahuasca, San Pedro, DMT, and psilocybin as portals. They can create profound experiences and reveal parts of the mind, heart, and human experience that may otherwise remain unseen. But with great power comes great responsibility. For seven years, I wrote curriculum for a medicine based program and supported people as a neuroscientist and therapist. I witnessed firsthand that even with strong assessments before an experience, much of the human psyche remains unknown. These medicines can uncover or intensify psychological vulnerabilities that neither the participant nor the facilitator knew were present. What begins as something beautiful or spiritual can become confusing, frightening, destabilizing, and potentially dangerous. That does not erase the beauty or the blessings these medicines may offer. It means we must speak honestly about both sides. Anything powerful enough to open a portal is powerful enough to open something a person may not yet be prepared to face. The responsibility cannot end when the ceremony ends. It must include rigorous screening, honest informed consent, skilled facilitation, individualized processing, qualified mental health support, and meaningful long term care. These medicines should never be promoted casually, romantically, or as though profound automatically means safe. Their power deserves respect, humility, preparation, and accountability.
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