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Posted On: April 23rd 2026, 06:26 pm
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My second single I DON’T BELIEVE IN GOD! from my debut EP is out MAY 1
a few days before my dads funeral, almost like someone was channeling something through me as a vessel, I heard the exact melody and lyrics of the first few lines of this song in Virginia. I voice memoed it immediately and over the course of a few weeks I wrote the whole song through my grieving process.
I wrote this song about feeling like you’ve lost your faith. About questioning religion. That first moment where you go through an extremely shocking and devastating loss and feeling like God betrayed you. When you prayed and begged God not to take this person from you and now they’re gone. How the anger, the confusion, and heartbreak can completely consume you and make you spiral to the point where’d you even think something like this.
This song is the really isolating feeling of losing your faith and being mad at God. How if you try to express that feeling to anyone around you, you’re usually shamed and told to never say that, that it’s sinful.
I know I’m not the only one who has felt this feeling in grief and loss…now anyone who feels these moments of doubt has a safe space in this song.
Written by Me
Produced: by @jamescaiin and me
mix & mastered by @jamescaiin
strings played by @kievmoralesviolin
a few days before my dads funeral, almost like someone was channeling something through me as a vessel, I heard the exact melody and lyrics of the first few lines of this song in Virginia. I voice memoed it immediately and over the course of a few weeks I wrote the whole song through my grieving process.
I wrote this song about feeling like you’ve lost your faith. About questioning religion. That first moment where you go through an extremely shocking and devastating loss and feeling like God betrayed you. When you prayed and begged God not to take this person from you and now they’re gone. How the anger, the confusion, and heartbreak can completely consume you and make you spiral to the point where’d you even think something like this.
This song is the really isolating feeling of losing your faith and being mad at God. How if you try to express that feeling to anyone around you, you’re usually shamed and told to never say that, that it’s sinful.
I know I’m not the only one who has felt this feeling in grief and loss…now anyone who feels these moments of doubt has a safe space in this song.
Written by Me
Produced: by @jamescaiin and me
mix & mastered by @jamescaiin
strings played by @kievmoralesviolin
Comments (133)
4 months agoestrellamalcom
Repent and seek God , You are following the same dark path as your father that leads to hell , This regrettable thing to do is know that his messages will be brought back to you on the day of your death, and you will have nothing left but tears.
6 months agocandicewilsoncherry
Beautiful! So excited to hear your new song! Congrats and so much love!
6 months agonijiavaughn
Music can be cathartic at times like this. You are channeling your grief into art which not only beautiful but healing. God bless and I know your daddy will always be watching over you and be proud of you. 🙏🏾❤
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