MrTj the Solution

My God… what a transition and blessing to know God’s voice. I was lost, I was frustrated, I was tired, I was afraid, I was demonized, I was looked at as crazy and confused, I was living through my own “un-belief”, my own doubt, my own trauma and so much more. I had paralysis from analysis! I sought approval from all the wrong people, places and systems. I literally thought God forgot about me and doubted he heard me any more, I doubted he cared.

I laugh now, as I write this, I hear how selfish and immature I’ve been. How lazy and slothful I’ve become. I hear how much of a hypocrite I became in public, while doubting God in private. I’ve been a fraud! My God!!!

I had to accept my reality, not grieve the moment and trust God for my future. It was hard! I wanted to be in control, I wanted to give up, I wanted to tell God what was best for me and HE LAUGHED WHILE REMAINING FAITHFUL TO HIS PLANS FOR MY LIFE AND FOR THAT… I AM SO GRATEFUL!

Here I am… just me! Out here trusting my father and his plans for my life. “Naked and afraid”, “broken but blessed” and “damaged but determined”, determined to obey God and trust his word. Be encouraged 🙌🏾