Ryan Leffas

Its hard to believe it has already been two years.

August 12, 2024 changed our lives forever. That was the day we became parents to a special little boy who will forever be a part of us, but it was also the day we had to say goodbye.

Dawson, you were so deeply loved before we ever got to hold you. I wish more than anything that we could have watched you grow, learned your personality, heard your laugh, watched you experience the world, and seen all the things that made you uniquely you.

We were supposed to have a lifetime with you. Instead, we were given a precious little piece of time that we will carry with us forever.

I often wonder who you would be today. What would your smile look like? What would your laugh sound like? What sports teams would you love? What would your favorite type of car be? What kind of gym exercises would you enjoy most? Would you annoy your big brother as much as your mom and I did ours? Who would you become? Those are the moments I wish we could have had.

Two years later, we still say your name. We still think about you. We still love you. And we always will.

I wish you could have survived, Dawson. I wish we could have given you the life you deserved and watched you grow up. I wish that I could have protected you and mom from all this pain. I wish for so many things that I would be here forever listing them.

But I am grateful that I am your dad. I am grateful that you lived the perfect 7 months growing inside your mom full of warmth and happiness. I am grateful that we are your parents. That is something no amount of time can ever take away.

I love you, son. I miss you every single day. Until we meet again, keep a place for your mom and dad.

Forever our son.
Forever our Awesome Dawson.
Forever loved. 💙💛

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This past year has had its ups and downs. Grief and depression took over me and I caused a lot of damage with my attitude towards life. I can't put it into words how sorry I am for doing that because I honestly had no idea I was. It destroys me knowing that I allowed that to happen. I am not perfect, I still make mistakes, bu