honesty

Oh Jesse. My brother. It hurts. It was never supposed to go this way. We were supposed to never settle and create cool shit until we were old geezers. What the fuck happened? Like all of us, you were born perfect to an imperfect world. And I guess you never adjusted.

I'm sorry I couldn't help you more. I'm sorry we couldn't stay close as you descended deeper into a dark place. I feel conflicted. I feel angry. But mostly, I just feel fuckin sad bro.

You played an outsized role in shaping me as a creative. As a tech guy. As a problem solver. You were one of the most naturally talented people I've ever met. And so low-key about it that many have no clue what you were truly capable of. There will never be another you. But we all carry your echo.

The song is a rough of mine and not all the words are intended for you (Jesse). You never got to hear it. But it captures some of what I'm feeling. And is a reminder to me that I need to keep moving forward, in spite of everything.

In moments like this I feel such a tension between giving the fuck up and going the fuck in. But I want to keep you alive brother. And the only way I know how is to do all the things the brightest version of you would have done. To create new worlds & blow past this petty one that keeps a spirit like yours down.

Love you always. Rest up my kindred 💔🕊️🤘