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My darlings, I miss you so, SO much ❤️

Kolja has been gone for three years and eight months now, and Pedro died eleven weeks ago.

The first summer without you is over now, and the first autumn without you has just begun.

So many people ask me when we’re getting a new dog, and that question tears me apart so much that I never really engage with it.

While I view it as a loving compliment that people consider me a great dog mom, they don't consider that grief doesn't simply vanish or fade away.

Life around us adapts to the grief 🌀

How could this pain, which reflects the infinite love I hold for my beloved animals, love that now has no recipient left in this world, ever diminish?

And besides, not everyone wants to bring new animals into the family right away after the beloved animal died.

It was the same when my horse and my cats passed away.

Being the mom to my animals was (and is) the greatest gift of a lifetime for me.

Furthermore, to me, an animal is a family member; it means taking responsibility for a living being for many years, or even decades in the best case.

If I adopt an animal, I want to ensure it has the best life and do everything for a home full of love, peace, joy and safety.

Given my health situation, if the universe intends to connect us with an animal, I will think twice - or even three times - bout whether we can truly meet all its needs.

That is genuinely important, and I wish more people would put that sense of responsibility into practice.

I miss you, beloved fur kids, so incredibly much.

I love you,
Mom.

♡

#grief
#soulmates
#seniordogs
#iloveyouforever
#theyrescuedme