LibbyJuneWeintraub ✨

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MUM

I felt your presence this morning, as I stood in the kitchen waiting for the kettle to boil. I was soaking wet in my swimsuit, wrapped in a towel, staring out at the pool and the rain pouring down in the garden.

I made a big pot of coffee and thought of you. Thought of you swimming in the pool with me in the rain with a big smile on your face. I thought of how soft your hands were and how nice they felt to hold and all the times you ran them through my hair as a kid to soothe me to sleep. I thought about the kind of life you would be living now if you had survived and what I’d share with you over coffee at the dining room table.

This photo was taken 5 days before your second brain surgery. We were milking every single moment out of our days. Do you remember? We were at the Ice Bergs swimming pool, in Bondi Beach.

Our day started with coffee and some delicious muffin from the cafe and a walk to the beach with Kaycee, to watch the sunrise.

You never wanted to go for a swim but when your body hit the water, your eyes lit up and you let out a gasp of “this is amazing”and “can we do this tomorrow??!!”’

You loved the small pool where kids learned to swim, it was filled to overflowing with fresh ocean water and they didn’t take the act of swimming seriously; some were there to learn, most were there laughing and sunbathing and hanging out with friends.

I loved watching you from the big white rocks as you smiled and splashed around like a 5 year old, with nowhere to go and nothing to do but relax in the salt water and soak up the sunlight.

I wish I could go back to that moment and steal away some more time with you.

I lit a tiny white candle and placed it on the top of a muffin and spoke some words out loud to you this morning, hoping you could hear me.

I love you mum. I miss sharing my life with you and I want you to know how proud of you I am because I know I never said it enough. Thank you for watching over us. Thank you for taking care of my baby girl. Thank you for reminding me that life is for living and for nudging me to jump in the pool this morning in the rain. I celebrate you everyday but especially today, Happy Birthday.