KYLIE HINGSTON

I’ve tried to put Intentional Self into a neat little box.

Keep it professional.
Keep it “business only.”
Keep the personal stuff over there and the work stuff over here.

I’ve tried.

But I’ve realised… I just can’t box her in.

Aka… I can’t box myself in.

I’m not boxable 😂

I love to share. Maybe too much. I’m not really sure. But I love sharing my inner thoughts… what I’m learning… what I’m moving through… what’s happening in my world.

So why do I keep trying to put myself in a box?

I like to feel organised. Prepared. In control. Very organised perhaps? 😂

But deep down, there is this huge desire to feel completely free.

Not pinned in.
Not controlled.
Not definable.

FREE.

I find myself going around and around in circles.

“Business page only.”
“You share too much.”
“Maybe just share your work.”
Then I get the ick because I don’t want to just sell to people.

In fact… to be honest… I don’t really want to sell at all.

I want to share.

And if you resonate… perfect.
And if you don’t… why? 😂

Just joking. That’s perfect too.

I’m not entirely sure what this latest revelation means, mainly because, if you have been here for a while, you will know I’ve been here before. Many times 🤪

Round and round and round we go. 😂

But recently… when I looked at this page… it just didn’t feel like me at all.

It felt like it was trying to be what she thought she should be.

And it didn’t feel like Kylie.

So I’m relaxing the grip.

I’m relaxing the need for this page to be anything other than whatever the fuck it wants to be.

And that might depend on my mood.
My hormones.
Where I’m at in my cycle.
What energy has moved through me that day.
What’s happening in my inner world.

Because my inner world inevitably dictates how this page feels to me.

And honestly?

I want this page to feel free.

Intentional Self and I can be one and the same, without needing to be neatly defined.

I have tried separating the pages.

Business.
Private.
My inner world.

And that’s just too much for me to manage.

What gets posted where? What gets posted there? Now I am confused 😂

Which version of me belongs on which page?

*continued in the comments…