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Posted On: October 13th 2026, 04:29 pm

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#tourdiaries When you’re trying to stay in shape but the catering is too good. 🍪 So stoked for our sold out @smashingpumpkins show tonight in Chicago at the @unitedcenter 🤘🏼❤️ can’t wait to see you all there! Shoutout to catering for making these incredible cookies … Omnomnom 🍪
You never know what someone else is going through 🥲
amen🪬
I’ll admit, it feels so weird to do this life alone. I’ll even hazard a guess and say most of us who find ourselves here would agree, it’s not what we were chasing in the beginning. I called one of my best friends the other day and heard all about his son, his brilliant wife, and how the chickens they were raising had just laid their first eggs. A beautiful life. Such a juxtaposition to the one I have. Ironically, he’s younger than me and living the life I always felt predestined for. The one I felt drawn to. Maybe even chased and charmed my way towards (admittedly, at the detriment of past lovers). And yet, here I am, at the furthest point from the thing I wanted the most. Drifting further out, it feels a bit like a Wes Anderson movie. Me, looking through binoculars back toward the shore of a rainbow (Row)-colored normality. Commiserating with my what-ifs and if-onlys, wondering how I ended up in this boat by myself. Wondering where my dog went. Who knew happiness could be found in the opposite of what I thought I wanted? Maybe still do. Not lonely, just alone. 🚣🏻
some things get better with age 💋🤍✨ Dress @jetblackclothing Decor: @theeventsedit - promise this is the final bday post I’ll stop being insufferable now 🫶🏼
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