Rita Benisti Inspired

The reason why Hashem doesn’t reveal His entire plan to you at once is because if He did, then you would get peace from the information, rather than your relationship with Him.

And I think about the places in my own life where I have no information.
No clarity.
Nothing I can point to and say, “This is how it could work out.”

It breaks me a little.
Because I’m human.
I want something to lean on.
Something to make it make sense.

But I’m starting to see something else in those moments, too.

When I cannot lean on an explanation, I get to discover what it means to lean on Him.

His goodness.
His love for me.
The possibilities that exist for Him even when I cannot picture a single one.

And from that place, with the tears still there, I get to whisper:

“Hashem, I don’t know how.
I can’t see a way.
But I have You.
And You are enough.”

I think there is something so deeply intimate about saying that while I still don’t understand. About letting my whole heart fall into who He is, before I know what He’s doing.

Hashem, I still want to know how.
But I want to feel, all the way into my bones, the magnitude of having You. 🤍