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♡ Little Bold Jumping Spood ♡

( Sub-adult, Phidippus audax)

Excuse my bad camera quality ♡ by @1996dunce

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22 days ago

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Very much needed, a nightly dose of nature, good talks and star gazing ♡

Thank you ♡

💪 @padrenuestro_1209 ♡

♡ Lord of Darkness ♡ ( Great Horned Owl )

.:Excuse the bad camera quality, my boy was high up:. taken in Point Fermin Park and Lighthouse Paseo Del Mar by @1996dunce

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I dont know what to call it.

Maybe Im slowly going insane?

Last night I went outside to look for the moon only to find and empty sky and it hit me.

In the back of my mind id hope to hear you walking around doing your nightly patrols around the area.

Then, Instinctively, I turned to where you'd like to sit hoping to find you.

Another night without you. Hit me like a train, again.

I try not to drown in these thoughts but its still very hard for me to grow acostumed to a life without you now.

I sat on the floor and broke down again.

I still keep your favorite pillow close to me and hug it as tight as I can hoping to somehow replicate the feeling of hugging you when life became too much.

But its not the same and probably won't be for a long time.

As I sat there hugging your pillow, crying my heart out in silence, your friend came by and stared at me. A little odd, considering hes a stray cat but something about his eyes; that stare, felt so familiar.

He didnt try to help, he just sat there and it reminded me so much of you.

And just like you, after I calmed down a bit he started to get me to pet him.

Walking around me, a bit wary but very determined to snag a pet, and he did.

I cant explain how weird it felt, not quite you but what else can explain his sudden interest... Im not his owner, he's not my cat, just a stray that enjoyed hanging out with you... by @1996dunce

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a month ago

by @1996dunce

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a month ago

Fuck...

Please give up the secrets on how to live life without you...

Or is it really living?
To lie awake well past 3 am
and bleed from a wound no one can see?

Tell me how is it possible for silence to become so loud without you?

How is it possible for these memories to grow teeth that sink into my chest everytime I am reminded of you.

I don't know what to do or think anymore...

The only thing I can say for certain is your absence has become the very ghost that haunts me.

I miss you so, so much... by @1996dunce

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a month ago

Even after your passing, you continue to teach me things as the days go by.

I spent so many nights worrying, losing sleep, and crying over people whose roots I thought were buried deep within my soul; people I believed would stay only to watch them leave.

But you…

You stayed.

You were there when things became ugly.
You were there when life was beautiful.
You remained when others found reasons to disappear.

You never needed a voice to tell me you loved me.
You only needed those patient, loving eyes that would find mine and quietly say, "Everything will be okay..." when the world got dark...

And those paws of yours....

Always waddlin forward with that stubborn little determination of yours, even when your body was tired you offered me comfort...despite your pain, even in your final days...

You kept going.

You kept fighting to stay, even on your deathbed...

You were more than "just a dog, a pet"

You were my shelter.

I just wish I had known that every ordinary moment with you was quietly becoming a memory.

I wish I had known that one day, I would ache for something as simple as your paws beside me.

Because you stayed through so much of my life…

and now I have to learn how to live through yours being gone.

All I can say now is that I only know that I loved you...

I loved you in all the ordinary moments I didn't realize were sacred.

And I love you now.

In the silence.

In the empty spaces.

In every automatic glance toward where you used to be.

I loved you while you were here.

And I will love you in every place where I have to miss you.

Maybe that's the last thing you left me with.

A love so deep that even death couldn't take it away.

You stayed as long as you could, my sweet Potato...

You were never just a dog I loved.

You were the little piece of this world that made me feel safe in it.

And I will spend the rest of my life missing the place I called home.

I love you so, so much ♡ by @1996dunce

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..♡.. by @1996dunce

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a month ago

First September Without you.

A simple trip to the store to pick up my dads phone turned out to be a very emotional experience.

With anxiety sky rocketting through the roof, I turn to the passenger seat where'd you'd sit.. now empty.
I still cant believe youre gone, its like my soul knows youre gone but my body refuses to acknowledge your absence.

I sat there for a good minute,
Remembering your happy face and wagging tail; cried over A pair of eyes I'll no longer see and patiently wait for me.

There so much I want to say...

You took your last breath August 10th, nearly a month ago.
Time flashed before my eyes, but the pain remains exactly the same, if not worse...

At 18 you came into my life and accompanied me in some of the worst years of my life...all throughout my 20's. Time stopped for you but the clock continued for me... Im turning 30 soon and now I have to face this milestone without you. How?

All i know now is that I miss you so, so much
And I love you dearly... by @1996dunce

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..♡.. by @1996dunce

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a month ago

♡ Eres una Cicatriz que me Lastima...♡ taken in León, Guanajuato by @1996dunce

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♡ by @1996dunce

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♡ taken in León, Guanajuato by @1996dunce

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