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영조길 25K를 다녀옴. 두통이 사라지질 않는다. 발가락의 피물집보다 훨씬 강력. 나의 가을은 몇번이 남았을까. by @589132427_

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새해에 나는 100K를 할 테니 너는 실기를 준비해 라고 했던 대망의 트제100.
하필 수시 실기날과 겹쳤다.
포기하지 않는 모습을 보여주고 싶었다.

예상과 다르게 넋 나간 채 마일리지가 사라진 한 달을 보냈다.
60K 이후는 미지의 영역이었고, 장거리만 하면 속이 뒤집혔다.
그 두려움을 안고 생각나는 대로 다 챙겨 출발했다.
CP2까지는 힘을 쓰려 하지 않고 둔근에만 집중했다.
걱정과 달리 컨디션이 평소보다 훨씬 좋았고, 윗세오름까지 즐겁게 달렸다.
막연해서 보수적으로 짠 타임테이블보다 30분 정도 빨랐고, 관음사까지 소진되는 느낌이 전혀 없었다. 
숩씨의 서포트와 샤인머스캣은 사랑.
드랍백의 참치죽과 사발면을 먹고, 먹지도 않아 남은 젤을 또 챙겨 한라산으로 향했다.
한라산 대피소에 샘물 정도는 있을 거라 생각했다.
오르막에 약한 나에게 물은 피보다 소중한데, 없었다.
다시 속이 뒤집힌 채 도착해 벤치에 앉아 한참 헛구역질을 하다 다시 출발했다.

58K 성판악만 보고 갔는데 성판악은 62K에 있었다.
타임테이블은 더 이상 믿을 수 없었고, 기준이 사라지니 빨리 가는 수밖에 없었다.
비가 내리기 시작하면서 완전히 어두워졌고, 마음도 같이 캄캄해졌다.
몇 번 접질리고 미끄러지고 나니 달리는 게 두려워 걷기 시작했다.
젤은 거의 먹지 못했다.
CP 음식과 샤인머스캣, 드랍백에 넣어둔 맛밤으로 버텼고, 속이 안 좋으면 민트캔디를 씹었다.
비가 너무 와서 CP에서 한참 기다리다 방수바지를 덧입고 나섰다.
걸음이 빠른 그룹을 골라 앞 주자의 발만 보고 갔다.
내가 할 수 있는 건 그것뿐이었다. 그리고 포기하지 않는 것.
대신 달리기가 너무 싫어졌다.
달리기도 싫고, 다치기도 싫고. 목표 시간이 사라지니 서두를 이유도 없어졌고, 오히려 체력이 남았다.

의현을 만나 함께 걷다가 먼저 보내고 다시 뛰기 시작했다.
춥고 몸이 굳어서 뛰는 게 더 편했다.
코스를 짠 사람을 욕하며 걷다가 가영, 정호를 만났다.
옥스팜 트레일워커 결성
목표를 잃은 각자의 이유로 투덜거리며 함께 걸었고, 그 시간까지 기다려준 존나 멋진 태우를 만났다.
뛰기보다 걸어들어가고 싶었다.
첫 100K가 끝났다.

한 번도 포기할 생각은 하지 않았고, 해가 뜨기 전에 도착했다.
생각보다 큰 고통은 없었다.
모자란 경험이 아쉬웠을 뿐.

시큰둥하게 "실기 잘 봤어" 하던 목소리를 마음에 담고,
미화 없는 109.7km 끝. by @589132427_

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꼬리에서 여전히 헉헉대고 있는 내가
100km를 넘보도록 성장시켜주고
나아가도록 이끌어준 꼬뮨 친구들
고마워, 좋아해

@soob.ssi 덕분에 큰 의지가 되었쪄쪄
보답하겠습니다

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