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Writes words. Says them sometimes. Bow with questionable strings. Once ran away from the zoo. Just some guy really
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You’d have been 32 today. But for whatever reason, we didn’t get you for 31. I’d never expected I’d have to live in a world where you did not.
Never expected that I would get further and further into the distance away from the time we shared the world.
The things we’ll never get to tick off and places we won’t go. Sometimes my memories blur and I wake up expecting you to knock at my window in the early hours so you can sneak back home unawares.
I’d let you in every time and I so wish I could once more.
I wish we could roll down the sandbanks and dangle our legs into the sea one last time. Sail rockpool crabs back out to sea in empty bacon trays.
I wish I could hitch a seater on the back of your bike and pick blackberries and sit in the long grass with you.
It’s never easy, I assume, to be the eldest, but you did a stellar job.
I am everything I could ever be because I was your kid sister. Because you let me tag along to whatever wild schemes were in mind, taught me how to live and let me in on all your secrets.
It’s rough, knowing that I’ll never get to see everything you could have been.
We’ll never get to make extensive road trip plans on half a tank, never get to sit and watch the world from the cliff tops, never get to cause havoc or smoke a joint or have beers on the step this side of the line because you’ve gone on to wherever we go next, early for us when we were always late.
We were both summer babies, born in the high heat, and I loved so much that I got to follow in your footsteps. Even though I know it had to annoy you some.
I wish you could be here still, and we could play out the rest of this time together. On our time.
Love you TJ. Thanks for everything.
See you in the long grass.
Happy 32. by @_gee__sus

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3 months ago

I’ve sat countless times and tried to write how I feel about closing off my final message to my big brother on a page of A4 and it feels nigh on impossible.
Loosing Tim is, for me, like loosing half of my whole. His was the shadow I forever chased growing up, whose bike I hitched endless seaters on to wherever it was I was tagging along to, and he was the one who knew without me needing to tell him anything.
We shared the same brain, rationale, thought process and deep gratitude for one another. I never doubted that for one second, despite everything life dropped our way in between those balmy afternoons eating leftover pizza and playing Simpsons hit and run on the GameCube (despite me having no idea how to work the goddamn controller) and Tim’s cremation on Friday.
Despite how imperfect my brother was and the troubles he faced, he was, without fail, always my big brother.
Those days spent being pushed down the ramps at Barnton skatepark on my brothers board or picking blackberries up a sandbank in some faraway campsite are long gone wisps of memory now, but they stay etched into my brain. A constant reminder of how much my big brother loved me, and I him. I still do and I hope somewhere, wherever we go beyond the veil of this life, he does too.
I’m not sure my life will ever feel normal again without his mischievous grin and my VIP pass to a world that in any other timeline I’d have been way too uncool for, but I know that he always told me to not sweat it, to keep moving, hold my head up and, most importantly, “not let the bastards grind you down George.”
I don’t have very calculated ideas on life beyond this one, but I do know wherever and whatever it is, my brother will be found watching the clouds pass by on the tops of mountains, in grassy fields on a summers day, in the taste of a cold Lipton ice tea and in every lesson, good and bad, that he taught me.
I love you T. You gave me my first bunch of flowers. I’m sorry I had to give you your last. by @_gee__sus

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a year ago

Hey Divas! My new substack is finally live! Read ‘I wanna go home’ via the link in my bio now and subscribe if your super kind and hot!! taken in London, United Kingdom by @_gee__sus

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a year ago

They’re putting me out to pasture soon!!
Can’t wait!!
🙈☘️🤨😩🥳✅🙏⬆️🫡💅👏 by @_gee__sus

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9 days ago

You guys mind if I hit the Gollum stance at the hang for a bit??
🙏🫡💅💅👏™️☘️💚⬆️🙈 by @_gee__sus

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15 days ago

Let the devil come to me I will out dance him and then offer him a glass of water xx
🙏☘️™️☘️ by @_gee__sus

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19 days ago

Things that happened this week.
#lockedin #graft #bosh #dadandson by @_gee__sus

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22 days ago

Yes I have been #wallowing it is to be expected when you have the curse
☘️🫡🤡™️ by @_gee__sus

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a month ago

Things I wish my brother could see that I’ve seen recently:

1.He’d have taken a picture of this and sent it to me.
2.This would have made him laugh and we’d have bought it up in so many conversations.
3.I’d send him this if they let you have phones beyond the veil.
4. He taught me to be exceptional at loitering. Both at home and away, living in the world was just basically a big long game for us.
5. He’d have sent me this.
6. This would have made him smile.
7. Another one I wish I could send.
8. He was good at making out shapes in the clouds. This kind of looks like a naked man sleeping to me, I would have sent it him and asked his judgement.
9. One of the last conversations we had in person was about a robin that was visiting him every morning. He joked about being in a relationship with a robin. It makes me really sad whenever I see one now.
This one caught me off guard, and I said hello to it as if it could understand me and knew why I was addressing it so personally. by @_gee__sus

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a month ago

Don’t subscribe the the autumn winter propaganda were about to see!!
Summer is a mindset and a motive, never let her go!! by @_gee__sus

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2 months ago

Yes I have started learning to juggle, yes I am writing that drag act, yes I am looking for pointy shoes, yes I am like a court jester who wouldn’t perform for a king, yes I’m a conceptual man hater, yes I’m eating bootleg recces cereal.
Hope that’s ok with you xx
#staywoke #clown #misandry by @_gee__sus

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2 months ago

They’re making me be 27 today ☹️☹️☹️☹️
Now I am an odd number of years I will start to be so serious and so normal about everything and I even plan to start looking before I cross the road!!
Ty for watching this space with me dudes!! taken in Birthday Land by @_gee__sus

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