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everything's pretty silly if ya think about it 🧞‍♀️

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i fell in love on accident & i haven't stopped thinking about him. love is actually the most beautiful, interesting thing about this life. pain is a close second. the inevitability of both has always fascinated me - & the relation between the two is incredible. i believe my contentment depends on how open i keep myself to experiencing both.
in loving someone, i've learned that pain is less scary to experience, actually. which maybe you knew already.
pain is comfortable, & familiar - if you're already feeling low, how can you possibly fall? love on the other hand: feels exciting & exhilarating. it's unpredictable but in a fun way - it feels safe & kind & warm yet simultaneously you're constantly looking over the edge awaiting the drop that must be coming.
maybe that parts just me. being in love isn't something i'm used to, so maybe to my traumatized nog pain is easier. though i'd venture the fear of falling keeps many people from showing themselves vulnerably in a way to love wholly.
anyway, i love him very much - i am entirely myself with him, i feel safe & seen & valued. he makes me feel beautiful & cool. he is the kindest, most interesting, loving, cute, supportive boy i know. & for the first time ever, i feel like i really love someone like i'm supposed to.
& the pain of knowing we can't be together? heartache inducing. lowkey devestating. i tear up mentioning him.
but i do think the love will always come first before the pain. the pain is inevitable, but how sincerely beautiful for this particular pain to come from being too in love. i'm honored.
i'm so thankful to experience all the love & pain this existence has to offer.
& who knows, maybe someday our luck will change, & you'll see an engagement announcement from me & my love. stay tuned 🌺 by @_thelittlestnut

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13 days ago

& nary a thing remained the same by @_thelittlestnut

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2 months ago

can't wait to see what happens, holy nuts by @_thelittlestnut

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2 months ago

summer summer summer & friends & guys™️ by @_thelittlestnut

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3 months ago

i'm crampin, man. real bad these days - my nausea is giving sea sick in a way i am severely uninterested in. but! my days are kinda silly lately, that's fun. i'm just boppin around really. if you'd like to go swimming or get a lil coffee or somethin in the middle of a weekday, please let a bitch know. if my body will allow, i shall be there. jason just BODIED my nails in a nasty way, the sun is darkening me asap which we absolutely love, & i am sloooowly going through my clothes to ensure only true fitssss are left. it's comin together. i've got a lil few weeks left this side of the country. let's see what we do w them 😏 by @_thelittlestnut

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3 months ago

& period 🧚🏽‍♀️ by @_thelittlestnut

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3 months ago

woah woah woah, big things happening over here, brother. life is so silly & what is it for if not to giggle & grow. summer is nice - a little complicated, but nothin we can't handle. the isolation of coming to terms w the people i love being in love on their own is continuing to make sense to me. it's totally natural & it's an okay feeling to work through. i don't mind feeling stuff! as long as i can have time & space to work out what it means to me & how i move forward. & i think we're doing that! yay! the move forward is a big one & i couldn't be more ready for it. i'm so so so excited to see what happens in this lifetime - excited to be surprised. let's just seeeeeeee! who knowsssssss! 😏 by @_thelittlestnut

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3 months ago

the months really be flyin, pops by @_thelittlestnut

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4 months ago

i'm excited for stuff!! i feel like the sun is out & therefore i'm automatically a better person. i'm having a silly time singing w my friends - i'm working & that's fine - i was an extra in a lil movie a couple weeks ago!! yay! i'm excited to get to continue to act - i'm hopeful for more opportunities to create w new, interesting, genuine people. i'm going to new york in a couple weeks for so many days 🥹🥹🥹 i feel a sense of peace in my emotional body that i feel has been a little quiet/hidden lately. i appreciate the beautiful things & people in my life. lots of changes/overhauls to my living space, soooooo happy about that. & i'm just gunna keep chasing joy as far as i can & see what happens. physical health? it's okay. i'm cramping all the time, i'm objectively exhausted, i'm pretty nauseous 80% of days, & also i am okay. got some big appointments coming up & a couple procedures/surgeries, & we'll just see how that goes ❤️ keep making art, however u do that by @_thelittlestnut

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5 months ago

april first starts a whole new somethin - presenting: the somethin's of march by @_thelittlestnut

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7 months ago

i'm just chilling really - solid job, good pals, fun show, lovely times all around. 🌸 by @_thelittlestnut

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8 months ago

the end & beginning of my little year. & now i'm 29 ✨ by @_thelittlestnut

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