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Sarah Ayre

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Just a Sassy Girl Spreading Good Energy
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What’s more Florida than a day trip to Key West?

Day trip to Key West!

Seeing my niece Juniper in Seattle!

Nights with Rachel are the best NGL

We had to do a duck selfie with the rubber duck, I mean come on

Birthdays are meant to be celebrated

Rawr! Wildlife refuge in Pembroke Pines

Again we love Rachel

The whole crew celebrating Memorial Day

Two of my loves

Puppy snuggles are so sweet

Tyra is a hair goddess

Grandma’s recipe oatmeal molasses bread 😍🤤

Buc-ee’s stops are the best

I missed Craig!!

Nick, Craig and I enjoying Akon & Ne-yo

We found Peter! by @ayrebear

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3 months ago

When I first met Rich in 2022 it was not an easy year for me. It was the first year that my mother’s dementia had progressed to the point where she no longer remembered my birthday, and after almost 32 years of her being my biggest champion and supporter and best friend, the reality of how life was going to be from here on out was an adjustment, to say the least. Less than two months later Richard entered my life via the internet, and to say I was guarded would be an understatement. I wanted to be loved so desperately but I had been hurt so badly that it took me a minute to trust and decide to let him in.

Timing is a funny thing of course, and a few weeks after we started seeing each other I went back to Seattle for 10 days and knew I had to seal the deal and make our relationship official because I wanted that man to be waiting for me (and me only) when I came back. And boy am I glad I did because during those almost two weeks I spent in Seattle being present and patient and creating holiday memories with my family, Rich was a constant reminder to show up as the loving light I so desperately want to be in this world. Not for the credit, not for the praise, not for anyone else but because it is who I am and what I want to see looking back on my actions. During that time he reflected the wonderful things he saw in me and knew about me back to me and supported me in a way that I have always desired but never had in a partner. He helped me heal pieces of me that I hadn’t realized had been broken and were hurting.

Since then life has thrown so many wonderful and terrible experiences our way, and as I have said from the very beginning, every time we lean into love and trust we find our way back to each other and back into this relationship that I am so incredibly grateful and proud to be in. (Continued in comments) by @ayrebear

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a year ago

Happy Heavenly Birthday mom

I have cried so many times over the past couple weeks, and especially the past couple of days, as the new reality of life without you sets in. I find myself craving in an entirely irrational and illogical way for years past, when you were able to be the mom and friend I knew you to be. And even though the reality of the last couple of years and the suffering you endured at the hands of your mind has finally ended, I still miss having you around.

I miss you in my Target runs. I miss you when I see a cute baby. I miss you when I see bright and bold and beautiful colors. I miss you when I feel scared, lonely, or confused. I miss rocking out with you and having deep conversations about the impact we might have on the world. I miss your gentle presence and your patience when I feel my own temper or impatience flare.

And even with the pain, I remain SO SO SO grateful for the time I was blessed to have with you and the love you shared so unconditionally that it will always be with me. Your beautiful smile and your fun little giggle I will always cherish, and in your honor I promise to continue to LIVE. To show up for those I care about, speak up about injustices, and be a kind, caring, and loving soul in a world who places more emphasis on material objects than on character. I also promise to take on the healing work that you never saw as an opportunity you deserved to seize.

And I thank you. Thank you for always remaining kind in a cruel world. Thank you for showing me what strength and independence and loyalty look like. Thank you for holding so true to your values that even now there is no question on where you stood and for always standing up for the unable to defend themselves. Thank you for being my best friend and the best mom a girl could ever desire. I love you so much mom happy birthday, and I’ll never stop missing you 💖 by @ayrebear

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a year ago

My heart hurts writing this 🥺❤️‍🩹

For those who don’t know, around 2020 time my mother Sue was diagnosed with dementia. For a while, they were just words and a diagnosis to explain the memory slippage and the odd things she would say.

Over the past year, however, my mother’s mental and physical health has declined to the point where we no longer know how much time we have left with her.

I am so grateful for the time and the memories we have had together and every moment I get with her now is a lesson in patience, but also in love.

That I get the opportunity to show Sue even just an iota of the kindness, compassion, love, and grace she has shown throughout her life is a blessing I hold close as the heartbreaking reality of her decline is something I do my best to stay close to.

Through means far beyond my control, I was blessed with a mother who showed my what a mother’s unconditional love can be like. She has always been my safe harbor in a storm, my sounding board, my adventure buddy, and my confidant. All of those wonderful memories makes losing access to her hurt all the more, even as I hold them close to my heart and try to keep them fresh in my mind.

This is not the end (not yet I hope), and this past week I was able to spend in Seattle has opened my eyes even more clearly to the beautiful duality of life and how complex our emotions can be. Gratitude for all of the little moments and a heart full of love that feels like it’s cracking into a million pieces. 💔

I wanted to share all of this because I know Sue has touched SO many lives and been a mother to more than just her biological children. It’s just who she naturally was and who she chose to be.

And if you are going through a silent battle, I want to also leave the gentle reminder that nothing lasts forever and we only get a limited number of moments on this Earth, so create as many magical memories as you can. And I see you. I love you. Protect your heart but also cherish it, because the ability to feel deeply and empathize is quickly leaving our society and strength comes in many forms.

Ty. I love you.
💖😭Sarah taken in Tapatio Mexican Grill by @ayrebear

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a year ago

All of life is better with you @richiefnrichh 💖💖💖

Have you been to superblue miami yet?? by @ayrebear

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3 years ago

The pop quiz I am always prepared for 😅🥰 by @ayrebear

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3 years ago

Sometimes, ignorance truly is bliss 🥲 #jets #nyjets by @ayrebear

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Adventuring with you is my favorite 🥹😍🥰🫠 taken in Orlando, Florida by @ayrebear

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3 years ago

Life has been pretty sweet lately 💖 by @ayrebear

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3 years ago

Happy happy Monday!

It’s officially spooky szn y’all, and it’s so spooky it’s got me saying y’all, because I am from nowhere near the south 🤣🤣😅

This week I want to remind you that who you are to others is someone you can be for yourself too. Many of the people in my life would take the shirt off their back to offer to you, and yet they are near ASF to themselves

It’s wild what we can get used to

And then there’s me reminding you gently that change happens both over time AND in the moment. You can make a little change now and over time build and see a HUGE difference

You don’t have to trust me. Try it for yourself 😜

As for them affirmations…

✨ I am becoming 1% better every day ✨
✨ I have the energy I need to take on my day ✨
✨ I am my own best friend ✨
✨ I do what I need to, to be who I want to, for myself and others ✨
✨ I am grateful for all I have while working towards my next goals ✨

Remember that you are both capable and worthy of showing up for yourself just as much as you show up for others

Love you,
Ayrebear 🐻 by @ayrebear

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4 years ago

Happy Monday cuties!!!

Good lord this week I’m exhausted 😂😅🫠

Some days are rocking with lots of energy, and some days all we can do is our best, right?

Here’s to more of the first 🤪

As for some affirmations:

✨ I listen to my body & nourish it ✨
✨ I identify and meet my all my needs ✨
✨ I have access to everything I need ✨
✨ My authenticity is desirable and delicious! ✨
✨ I do my best, and release the rest ✨

This week the theme is around tapping into ourselves to take better care of ourselves (so many ourselves hahaha)

I am personally leaning into these affirmations HEAVILY as I navigate a busy and potentially stressful week. Making sure that I have taken care of me allows me to be generous with my sense of self and the difference is noticeable

What are your taking with you into the week? Share with me below!

Love you & all your scars,
Ayrebear 🐻 taken in Boynton Beach, Florida by @ayrebear

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4 years ago

Hey cosmic cutie, please don’t forget that you‘re the one responsible for identifying and meeting your basic needs

Like, I understand Big Dawg if you haven’t been taught how, but that doesn’t make it any less of your responsibility

My own personal opinion is that most people these days are so disconnected to the felt experience of living in their bodies that they don’t even know when their needs aren’t getting met

So often the first thing we reach for when feeling less than stellar is drugs - prescription or recreational

I am not saying that these things can’t help, however I know from my own personal experience that I used to supplement proper food, rest, and hydration with more pills and processed crap because the short term relief was worth it

Now I make a lot of intentional decisions about what I consume, from food to water to music to information, and it helps me connect deeper to my body so that when something is off, I can more easily pinpoint what that is and take care of myself

I of course (and this will come as a great shock to no one lol) am not perfect. From 2016-2019 I was so disconnected from my own body that I gave myself an autoimmune disease and was depressed & anxious AF. I remember the moment I rediscovered my intuition and cried because I could finally tap into my gut again 😭🫠

My point is this: life is crazy and it just get crazier (that’s a perspective lol you don’t have to adopt or agree with it), and we have choices. We can choose to tap into our bodies and the inner knowing they have or not. Choice is always ours but personally there’s a method I recommend hehehe

And it’s not anyone else’s responsibility to do these things for us. As responsible individuals, we have the opportunity to show up and take care of ourselves. I bet it would even help you take better care of others if you allowed a few extra minutes or moments for yourself. Just a hunch

How good are you at identifying and meeting your needs? Scale of 0-10 (0 being WAY bad and 10 being needs met all the time), where do you fall? Share below 👇🏼

Love you so so so much,
Ayrebear 🐻 taken in Delray Beach, Florida by @ayrebear

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