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Bailey Weisz

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With it being National Suicide Prevention Day, and Suicide Awareness month, I wanted to share a bit of my story. This is not easy for me in the slightest, but I want people to know they are not alone. I was diagnosed with clinical depression back in May. For years I’ve struggled with understanding my emotions and what they were. As i got older, my emotions got worse. I started to lose the passion I had for my favorite things, I was tired everyday no matter what, I wanted to sleep forever and ever. once I got to college, I was drowning. I was skipping classes just to sleep, not eating, never went out with friends, always spent my time alone in my room. I didn’t want to live. And I felt this way from my freshman year, into my sophomore. I was in put into counseling by my coach after I had opened up to her about how i had been feeling. It was scary and I was terrified. But I trusted her and knew she wanted what was best for me. Counseling was the only thing I was doing at the time and things didn’t seem to be getting better. I’ve been on medication for only a few months now, and I am slowly feeling more like myself. I still have my bad days, but not as bad as they were before. You can see in some of the pictures I added in, I look happy. I look like I’m enjoying life and things are good. When in reality, I wasn’t. I felt numb, dead, like a lifeless body roaming the earth. I put a smile on my face and created a facade so nobody knew. Some people saw through it, others completely fell for it. I was in survival mode, while also fighting against myself. Mental health is important. Mental illness is real. Depression is real. Anxiety is real. BPD is real. Bipolar is real. PSTD is real. All mental illnesses are real. SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND IDEATION IS. REAL. People don’t make these things up just because they want attention. They don’t self harm so they can show it off and act like it’s a cool, trending thing. Its something that people do to try and make themselves FEEL something, since they can’t feel anything else except numbness and emptiness. It’s not some fun, quirky “thing” to have. it is something people TRULY struggle with and need help. (continued in comments) by @bweisz21

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So…I can stop taking my meds right?😁
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Gigi had me bawling my eyes out🥲
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#thegreatdividetour taken in T-Mobile Park by @bweisz21

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Tourist behavior was successfully completed📸🏙️

#Itriedtobringapigeonhome taken in Seattle, Washington by @bweisz21

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Don’t forget to live🖤

Thankful for the people that made this happen🥹 taken in First Interstate Arena at Metra -Billings, MT by @bweisz21

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Senior year (almost) wrapped… just taking the scenic route🙃 taken in University of Saint Mary by @bweisz21

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finally decided it was time to post these😅

billie taught me two things this night….. 1) don’t wait on someone who doesn’t want all of you and 2) those around you are the most valuable

i had the BEST time spending maddix’s (early) 21st birthday with the best people🩶🪶🪶🪶 taken in T-Mobile Center by @bweisz21

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Growing up people always told me “time flies, enjoy it while you can because it will be gone before you know it” and I always laughed and thought “what do they even mean by that?” Well…now I get it. Time does fly, and I still cannot believe it is gone.

It’s weird having done a “goodbye” post before, but this time it’s a goodbye to the sport that has become my whole life for the last 12 years. This sport has taught me so much including how to make long life friends, overcome obstacles and live life to the fullest. I cannot express my gratitude enough for USM giving me another chance to play volleyball after PC closed. And I cannot thank all of the coaches that helped me get here, to USM and collegiately, enough either. I am grateful for those I have met and the lifelong friendships i have made. I cannot thank my parents enough either for enduring everything and the hardship of me moving even farther away from home. And to my little sister…thank you for sticking with me all these years and somehow trusting me sometimes. I am beyond grateful I got to play with you one last time, especially in college.

Thank you for the last 2 years Spire family. #12 out… taken in University of Saint Mary - Leavenworth Campus Berchmans Hall by @bweisz21

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are you ready? it’s coming. AHHHHHHHHHHH
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sometimes you just need last minute concert tickets and your best friend😋 taken in Azura Amphitheater by @bweisz21

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yknow @noahkahanmusic …i think this was the best mediocre concert i have ever been too:)

thank you for showing me that the lights CAN be turned back on, and that i am not alone:)

please check out @thebusyheadproject to help support and create accessible mental health services for all:)

#mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters taken in Azura Amphitheater by @bweisz21

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end of junior year: the year i mastered the art of procrastination and perfected my coffee addiction🥲🤭 taken in University of Saint Mary - Leavenworth Campus Berchmans Hall by @bweisz21

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(late) fall semester recap🍂🐈‍⬛✔️ taken in University of Saint Mary - Leavenworth Campus Berchmans Hall by @bweisz21

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With the unfortunate closure of Presentation College, I was left to find a new collegiate home. I am happy to announce that I will be continuing my volleyball career and athletic training education at University of Saint Mary in Leavenworth, KS! I would like to thank Coach Albrecht, Coach Swenson, and my Saints teammates for all the love and support the past two years. 💚💛
As sad as I am about having to leave PC, I am excited for my next adventure at USM. Thank you Coach Beall for the opportunity! 💙💛#gospires #saintsforever by @bweisz21

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