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A Plague Tale: Requiem 📷

This was one of the game series i enjoyed playing every minute of it. Even though gameplay-wise it did not have such revolutionary aspects, i still enjoyed everything about it a lot. Put me in tears, made me laugh and felt so full. by @cat_lonn

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13 days ago

They wiped the dusts.
Put the new furniture and settled.
I was the only who got left with no remedy.
A remedy i searched when i had it already.
A remedy i declined with my bare fists.
What i wanted was all just for naught.
I was fine on the cold marble. For i have never used the wings given to me.
They grew weak and so did i.
I want to smile.
I don't want to be mad. by @cat_lonn

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21 days ago

it's okay to be angry. it's not okay to be cruel. by @cat_lonn

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2 months ago

Finally i was able to write something about my novel. Which again, a dream i saw helped me through it. I can still feel it. It just felt so real and i'm an empty shell now. Writing a small part of the story inspired by it felt pretty good too. Hope to return back writing after i reread some of the old stuff i've read a while back + new ones. I will see you later Finn. I hope. by @cat_lonn

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3 months ago

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4 months ago

Tell me, do you believe

Tell me, do you think the divine one can grow tired of one

Tell me now, what does the divine one feel

What could the divine one feel

Tell me everything. by @cat_lonn

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7 months ago

These past days i wrote down many ideas for my steampunk world due to some medias i consumed. However i need to consume and research more if i also want to continue its lore, story etc. Might take some time but its okay. Because lowkey disracts me from my thoughts and nightmares. by @cat_lonn

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7 months ago

i can be cruel i can be kind i can be funny by @cat_lonn

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7 months ago

Shortly after this interview, Robin Williams took his own life. Robin Williams was suffering from early onset Lewy Body disease (LBD), a form of dementia. He was often referred as the kindest and purest. Kindest and purest one can ever be. He had it all - or so we thought. He was gifted in mind. When he started to lose that brilliant mind of his, while also wrestling with paranoid hallucinations, perhaps he couldn't find any other solution but suicide.

I sometimes still come across on reddit about people's meeting experiences with him irl. They always mention how gentle and dear he was. There is one i personally love the most. It says like this;

"I'll never forget being on a bus and I saw them taking a break
from filming in front of the Doubtfire house. I acted like a
fool and leaned out the window and yelled 'Robin we love
you!!' I swear I could see him blush from half a block away
as he waved to me."

May you rest in peace. O' captain my captain. You will be missed. by @cat_lonn

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10 months ago

By getting into much more subjects, reading niche lores, essays, letters that not even the creators of them remember any of that stuff they wrote, i realized i wanted to share more with people than ever. I realized i was deeply in need of interaction with someone. That strong feeling of need to engage intellectually with someone..

8 months have been passed and throughout these months, i, have felt deeply, painfully, lonely.

Loneliness, by definition, is alienating.

But loneliness isn’t just the absence of people, because I do have people who I know love me, and I love them. When I say I’m lonely, it’s the existential rudderless feeling of being lost. Loneliness is not just a matter of being isolated from others entirely, since one can be lonely even in a room full of people. It feels like a space adjacent to depression. My loneliness is not quite as all consuming as depression, but it has some of the familiar footholds.

Kieran Setiya's core is that loneliness is not merely about physical isolation but stems from a lack of meaningful, loving relationships that reflect back an individual's inherent worth.

And just as one can feel lonely in a room full of strangers, one can also feel lonely in a room full of friends. Which means the relationships one has insufficient quality, lacking depth or a desired feeling of connection. A person will perceive such relationships of course as insufficient when friends and family do not meet the specific needs or recognising and affirming them as the particular individual that they are.

One more thing! When i write something, i dont do it just randomly during the day, i do it when i deeply feel the subject i'm talking about. Of course this is the way every other person does but my point is, i, was deeply feeling, living and embracing every words i wrote and read too.
ANYWAYSS I WROTE TOO MUCH, SPECIAL THANKS TO Kaitlyn Creasy AND Olivia Schneider for their inspiring works. Also thank youu for reading, much appreciate it! by @cat_lonn

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a year ago

'Let me begin again. Dear god, how many times can we begin again?'

"Try to raise up the sunken feelings of this enormous past; your personality will grow stronger, your solitude will expand and become a place where you can live in the twilight, where the noise of other people passes by, far in the distance. — And if out of this turning-within, out of this immersion in your own world, poems come, then you will not think of asking anyone whether they are good or not. Nor will you try to interest magazines in these works: for you will see them as your dear natural possession, a piece of your life, a voice from it. A work of art is good if it has arisen out of necessity. That is the only way one can judge.

Accept that answer, just as it is given to you, without trying to interpret it. Perhaps you will discover that you are called to be an artist. For the creator must be a world for himself and must find everything in himself and in Nature, to whom his whole life is devoted."

-Rainer Maria Rilke's letters to a young poet. (Franz Xaver Kappus)

In his first letter, R.M Rilke declines to criticize Kappus' poems. In the very beginning he wrote "Nothing touches a work of art so little as words of criticism : they always result in more or less fortunate misunderstandings."

Kappus tries to compare his poems to others. And becomes upset when certain editors reject his works. R.M Rilke tells him to avoid such things. Tells him that noone, not a single person is able help him. He wants him to go and find the reason why he wanted to write in the first place.

After reading more, those words i mentioned at the beginning really touched the depths of my own heart. It's funny how easy we can adapt acommadate such words with our own life. But yeah that's the best parts about our lives. After all, aren't we all somehow connected?
Anyways, i know that noone really reads this but hey thank you. Nowadays everything seems so overwhelming and boring. There are many reasons for that but i wont go details in here. I will try to do something kind of different. Gonna practice art again and continue on my novel. (i might turn it into a manga if i can learn how to draw properly lol) by @cat_lonn

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a year ago