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A little under a year ago I lost myself in a love that was never real. I went to jail and my life got rough and I never realized how much of my life was affected by my past. The years of shoving emotions deep into the pits of a hell I never knew I lived in. My life has been a struggle for this past year, And I never knew how much I needed it, the pain the sorrow the necessity of it all. I was taught very young that emotions are weakness and a group I was court ordered to take made me realize I’m not the only one. My life has always been about not feeling, so much so that I never really knew that I needed to feel pain because crying is not a weakness it is proof that I am human and that you can feel the pain. Sometimes crying is good and necessary and taking your pain out on things that shouldn’t be apart of your life… drugs, alcohol, whatever it may be doesn’t help in the end and it took me a long time to realize that pain can be a good thing and suppressing your pain will only put you in more pain. Suffering isn’t loud it’s almost always silent, behind closed doors, where no one can hear you scream, deep inside your own personal hell. I’ve never really been okay and I think it’s time I I admit that because life without suffering is unrealistic. You have to have darkness to see the light and fuck has my life been dark. I hit rock bottom in a jail cell and it was the most beautiful thing I’ve had to do in my life. When I started this journey my life was in shambles I had just gotten out of a relationship with someone who was a monster I got out of a moving car because this man child was screaming at me in front of his child I put myself in dangerous situations because I never understood what real love was. I still don’t I can only hope I figure it out and hope that my life gets better from here. I’m learning that I have to settle for better and never let myself get hurt by someone who was never worth the oxygen to begin with. I’m learning that I deserve better than what I saw in my life and what I experienced. I’m learning that standing up for yourself is the best thing I can do for my wellbeing because nothing can change if I don’t make it. So thank you. by @cat_seymore18

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#grayday shit went hardddddd by @cat_seymore18

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Drinking on the ocean with my cousin was a vibe. 1000/10 would do it again most fun I’ve had with my family in a long time #cruisin by @cat_seymore18

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I will never be a second choice. I’m not your back up when shit doesn’t work out love me first or leave me by @cat_seymore18

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I will never again apologize for being myself. You don’t like it fuck off respectfully 😊 by @cat_seymore18

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I will never again ask for someone to treat me better if you don’t treat me right you can watch me walk away and never turn back around 😘 by @cat_seymore18

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I will never again make up excuses for someone who only gives me half assed “love” by @cat_seymore18

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I will never again let someone else’s opinion affect my self worth by @cat_seymore18

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I will never again be in a situation I didn’t want to be in saying no is okay cat. by @cat_seymore18

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