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Dad,

Today marks 5 years since I lost you. 1,826 days. I don’t know how the time has flown by right before my eyes, but it still feels like yesterday that I learned of your death. A part of me would love to say it’s become easier to deal with over time, but in truth, it has become worse than any pain I know of. Yet still, I know I must press on amidst the grief. There are too many experiences I’ve had that I was unable to share with you, so many parts of my life you could not witness. Countless triumphs and defeats, innumerable moments of growth and of learning. Going from being a boy to a man. This past year has been the toughest to date, filled with so many ups and downs. I never asked for an easy life, I never wanted an easy life, but you being here would make things feel just a bit more bearable. Days would be more pleasant knowing I could speak to you. I still talk to you often, though I cannot hear your reply. I won’t lie, I used to be angry at you. I didn’t know why you had to leave early in my life. I didn’t understand why life had to be so fragile and come with so many complexities. Sometimes I still don’t. Now, all I can say is I am thankful to have been able to call you my father. I wouldn’t be where I am today without you. I wouldn’t be the man I am today without you. To be able to call myself the son of Richard Rutherford gives me pride like nothing else. I continue to challenge myself each day to live up to that title. There’s a long road ahead of me, undoubtedly filled with struggle and pain, but it’ll be worth it in the end. Through the blood, the sweat, the tears, and those who would see me fall, I press on. With these struggles, moments of happiness and victory are inevitable, each one overshadowing the difficulty that preceded it. I'm still young and have my entire life ahead of me. I have plenty of time to show the world what I am capable of, as a result of you. Thank you for everything you gave me, for the motivation and drive your memory continues to instill in me. I love you and will see you again in another life, dad. For now, we move forward, to survive and find some meaning in this suffering.

Nec sorta, nec fato.

Your son,
Christian by @chris.r2022

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4 years ago

ask not for whom the bell tolls

8/8 ✅ Grateful for it all.

#baguette #хлеб #unc #employment taken in Davidson College by @chris.r2022

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5 months ago

A Senior Night to Remember Inside Belk Arena‼️ by @chris.r2022

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8 months ago

The End and the Death (of algorithms)

7/8

#bread #senioryear #хлеб #unc taken in Davidson College by @chris.r2022

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10 months ago

Gone 4 a min

#bread #senioryear #хлеб #unc taken in Davidson College by @chris.r2022

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a year ago

razor sharp teeth gnaw at my feet by @chris.r2022

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a year ago

I don’t need you to see what I see. taken in Washington D. C. by @chris.r2022

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a year ago

See ya

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#bread #letsdavidson #хлеб taken in Davidson College by @chris.r2022

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a year ago

Everything matters, this is all that we have taken in Edinburgh, United Kingdom by @chris.r2022

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2 years ago

Okay…job’s done 😼

5/8 ✅ taken in London, United Kingdom by @chris.r2022

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2 years ago

We must live in our own experience, we cannot inherit it.

Brussels -> Köln -> Berlin -> Prague -> Kraków -> Budapest -> Zagreb -> Ljubljana -> Zürich -> Paris taken in Cologne, Germany by @chris.r2022

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2 years ago

Déjà rêvé

Dağlar, pişiklər, göllər, və çay içmək — Hamısı üçün darıxacağam taken in Baku, Azerbaijan by @chris.r2022

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