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Last year around this time I was with someone absolutely no good for me or himself. I almost lost my life because everything that went on in that relationship. This year I'm in a completely different state and with family. Honestly it's the best decision I have made to leave him then to leave the state I was born in. I still have love for Arizona but not the town I grew up in. I'm not proud of it at all nothing but drug addicts,liars, and cheaters. That town almost took my life several times and so do a few people in my life. I know it's everywhere but I finally feel cared for like I do for others without even having to ask. Thank you to everyone who has helped me. I still struggle to enjoy my days sometimes but I'm not alone anymore. I can see how I actually look for the first time in years and I love her. by @eternalmuukia_13

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15 hours ago

Yk the only reason I got rid of the emo side part because I felt like I had to fit in to be pretty. All the girls now have middle parts. I struggled with me alternative and mexican. To prove I was mexican enough I dropped what made me instead of embracing both. It's been a fully year of being a devotee of Santa Muerte. I can't thank her enough for pushing to be me and be proud of who I am. Embracing your unique styles and fuck the rest.

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#emogirl #fypppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp #santamuerte by @eternalmuukia_13

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a month ago

Oh is this a heavy topic for me

It's been four years since then just this May 26 actually. For a good majority of that time I thought I was handling that extremely well but no I was just masking it. Every hand raise in just a way that silently. Every raised voice, every angry outburst, every male angry It's still there... It's effected other parts of my life I wasn't expecting and never put the two together until now. I didn't see all the damage he still continued to do even if he was longer gone out of my life. I'm extremely lucky I made it out. I know its hard but please tell someone or multiple people. That so called "bond" or "love" is a dangerous trap. I was lucky to have men in my life help me get out of that house. Sometimes when I zone out I get the flashbacks of every verbal abuse, him forcing me to watch how to sweep videos since he insisted i didn't know how to which I fully did. He was just a dumbass who had the fan on and the door open. Honestly I don't know if I'll talk about this again. I hope he gets the same fear I did that night and something changes him like genuinely changes.
#dvsurvivor #dv #dvawareness #grief #healingjourney by @eternalmuukia_13

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2 months ago

Bitxhes be posers by @eternalmuukia_13

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2 months ago

How do you stand yourself after serial lying and serial cheating on a girl you supposedly love and wanted to marry? by @eternalmuukia_13

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3 months ago

I wasn't supposed to make it this far. Between all the grief, the bpd, depression, and heart break darkness genuinely almost won. Especially with last year toxic relationship. I was so ready to let go but then Santisma came in gentle as can be ready to help me. She brought the light and peace i didn't see before.

5/4 is my mom's heavenly birthday 11 of them so far. She reminds of the reason why I even challenged myself to Hold on Till May. When I thought the darkness was gonna take me for good grace had came in and met me. Thank you Santa and thank you mom. If you are struggling, there is time to heal and to see that light again. Have a good May 🫶🏽🫶🏽. Retired Emo kid is out

#bpd
#bpdawareness
#santismamuerte
#emogirl by @eternalmuukia_13

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3 months ago

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3 months ago

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3 months ago

Just a yearning mexican
#fypppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp #fypシ❤️💞❤️ #mexican by @eternalmuukia_13

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3 months ago

Finally felt like posting my bare face
#bareface #fypppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp #fypシ❤️💞❤️ by @eternalmuukia_13

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4 months ago

😝
#fypppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp #fettywap #urmom #mexican by @eternalmuukia_13

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4 months ago

Yk I used to love February so much because it the month of the love. Then my mom passed in February when I was 11 and now my aunt at 22. I kinda hate it now. As much drama my aunt was she taught alot about clothes and how to care of myself. A lot of my aunts helped me when my mom passed away. Aunt Kim was definitely one of them. I know she had her problems but she did install confidence and tried her best to help me. I love you and I know you are enjoying where you went. It's been hard since November but this reminds me how strong I could be. You were some of my favorite parts of my childhood. 🖤❤️‍🩹. I remember the Cheetah heel shoe chair and her requesting Teena Marie. by @eternalmuukia_13

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5 months ago