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@feralwithacamera

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born & raised in north cackalack,
seasoned in berlin,
now i’m back.
i take photos and exist in a constant state of overstimulation.

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joining us at @15minutesoffemme tonight...
19:00 PNKSAND
19:30 VENIOR
20:00 MIKEY
(CET)

photo @celestecall
assistant @philo_mena_w
hair&makeup @mareija_lowreijn
styling/design @don_aretino taken in Badehaus Berlin by @feralwithacamera

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6 years ago

I’ve lost my patience for this app; however, I have a lot of thoughtful and special messages that I have yet to respond to or even read.

Making it a priority to catch up on all correspondence before I make an official departure.
I hate this place and no longer feel hopeful that they will ever make an actual effort to restore its once functional user interface.

@instagram please consider simplifying things here. you have created a doomscrolling hell impossible to navigate. I just wanted to see people’s lives and their works of art. Take your ads and your AI and your streaming and put it somewhere else please. it does not belong here. by @feralwithacamera

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4 days ago

by @feralwithacamera

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19 days ago

vulnerability is all i have left to give 🕊️ by @feralwithacamera

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20 days ago

SCROLL TO THE END FOR A CUTE PHOTO OF MY DAD HOLDING WHAT EVENTUALLY BECAME MY FILM CAMERA <3
fun fact: my pops was his school’s yearbook photographer and some many moons later, i was too.

as much as I would love to write a deep and meaningful caption for this, what I hope to eventually consider, new era - my poor numb fingers/hands would suffer tremendously.

so i’ll keep it short & sweet :)

thank you to everyone who has supported me over the last fifteen years, it’s been a wild ride.
this was, is, and hopefully will forever remain what makes my soul sing.

i changed my username for a multitude of reasons, but mostly to remind myself that my passion & this dream still have space in my life.

i’ve tagged the ones who snapped these photos, apart from a few whose usernames i unfortunately couldn’t remember.
thank you, for capturing me doing what i love - i cherish these moments and am always grateful when i look back at these photos.

my brain is mush and my hands are currently useless so that’s all for now.
here’s to finding my way back to the place where i belong:
behind the camera.

🩷✨ taken in Oak Island, North Carolina by @feralwithacamera

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a month ago

Very much looking forward to a special late night set at @thesoundofbronkow festival today.
00:30 at @thaliakinodresden 🌙

📸 @celestecall ✨️ taken in The Sound of Bronkow Music Festival by @feralwithacamera

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a month ago

friendly reminder that you can access an entire vault of celly noodles by subscribing to my VIP tier on patreon 🩷

six years worth of all my bits!
you can also subscribe to a lower tier for various photoshoot sets or just to support.

i have $10 to my name right now,
so anything helps :’)

yes i’m desperate and posting this at 2 in the morning in the hopes that a few people have extra pocket change this month.

if you’ve ever hired me or collaborated with me,
tips are always greatly appreciated regardless of how much time has passed since we shot ;) by @feralwithacamera

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2 months ago

The purest representation of love being patient and kind lives in this relationship.

Words cannot express how lucky I feel to have captured this moment, and to have known you for all the years that led up to it.

I’m having the hardest time writing this without soaking my phone in tears. I can’t explain it, but if you know these two - I’m sure you can relate.

I love your love. I admire your love. I am so proud of your love.

You are so lucky to have found one another.
And I’m so lucky to have found friends like you, with a love that is constantly inspiring others.

I’m tripping over all the things I want to say, but I think you’re fully aware of the massive place you both hold in my heart.

Congratulations to two people who were truly meant to be.
Our modern day fairytale.

~*EDM love song was necessary for these little festival rats*~

@embrace_light & @zach_hubbard
<3 taken in Pawleys Island, South Carolina by @feralwithacamera

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3 months ago

take a guess who hasn’t taken a single photo on her camera for the july series since she posted about it.

here’s to hoping i will eventually achieve something.
anything.
:’) taken in Oak Island, North Carolina by @feralwithacamera

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3 months ago

I’ve decided to try and take a photo once a day this month,
to get back to lovin’ my craft as I once did.

I could explain the concept here,
but I’ve got to head back into work - so I’ll leave these with you to interpret yourself.
✨🌭💊 taken in Oak Island, North Carolina by @feralwithacamera

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3 months ago

To-Do List:

-text (insert name here) back
-cancel (insert subscription here)
-apply to (insert job here)
-pay (insert credit card company) bill here
-message (insert name here) back
-tidy (insert anywhere in house here) up
-return (insert stupid purchase here)
-make another to do list with most of this on here again in one week

living life with anxiety, ADHD, and depression has become increasingly difficult over the years. being an adult, a productive member of society, even just a decent friend - feels impossible most days. i spend my nights wide awake trying to improve my life in some kind of way. trying to sell things i should have never bought (because shopping is the only way i find serotonin these days), attempting to respond to messages (which feels like pulling teeth), and trying to figure out where to go from here.

i went from never being fired to being fired from 3 separate jobs in the span of a year.
i went from being kept busy shooting and hanging with friends,
to feeling physically incapable of doing either - especially photo work.

each day is an obstacle course of trying to process grief i’m avoiding, to not cancel plans because i’m too anxious/sad, and to remember why i’m here and that life won’t always be this way.

my body aches from long nights spent at my computer trying to get things done while also full on escaping my life by gaming.

i have a stack of to-do lists.
and a never-ending list of ways i need to change my life.
yet most of the time, i just find new projects to keep myself busy.

i ache to feel like myself again,
or to somehow become a better version of who i am right now.
i ache to heal and find a way to navigate it all, and to accept that who i am now doesn’t really appeal to others.

as i continue to lose friends, whether by my own foolishness or their decision to give up on me - i continue to wonder what i have to do to be someone people want around.

i want to be real. i want to communicate openly and honestly,
but some days it feels like people just want a puppet.
or someone who doesn’t care about them or about anything.

to be continued.
#celfportraits taken in Oak Island, North Carolina by @feralwithacamera

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4 months ago

my dearest koali,
i’ve adored you since the moment i met you and that love has only grown even bigger and more beautiful.
thank you for being my forever friend, and for the endless laughs and wine bottles.

happy birthday to you,
may this next year bring you all that you wish for.

i can’t wait to hug you again.
🩷
forever missing you and the beautifully ridiculous times we spent together in berlin. taken in Berlin, Germany by @feralwithacamera

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