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a deer resting with jasmine flowers for my softest friend @alizedubois 🌿🩵 after 2 years of not tattooing and a swirling chaotic spiral of figuring things out, i am so endlessly grateful for your support to help me continue creating and making art 💫 i hope this tattoo reminds you that to be gentle is always a gift in this world <3

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#londontattooartist #naturetattoo #queertattooartist by @fish____boy

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a year ago

summer of being in love with all of my friends / summer of clawing back into my body over and over / can routine become ritual / summer of feeling resistance within me and meeting it with gentle curiosity / summer of waves of grief in every moment of unrelenting sun / there must still be life deep in our roots / summer of where do we go from here / summer of it’s not what i thought it would be / but what if it could be more / summer of surrender / summer of surrender / summer of surrender by @fish____boy

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2 months ago

moments in time, i let the sand fall away in between my fingers. don’t hold on too tight, the ocean whispers. the salt will clean the wound. the water will smooth your edges. the flowers will guide your path. by @fish____boy

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4 months ago

Bodies in Bloom Installation 🌾

I still am overwhelmed by the magic of this evening and all the love that was present. I started my masters at a time when some very foundational pillars of my life were collapsing and i was finding my way in the world for what felt like almost the first time. To be able to take time out and come back to make work about the ways of being that have been hugely transformative for me is such a blessing and would not have been possible without all of the love and support i have surrounding me. It has meant the absolute world to me to collaborate with such beautiful people and be supported throughout this process.

This project reached its fullest potential because @abeingonfire poured so much into it with the sound composition both for the film and the installation set-up. I am so beyond grateful for your time and dedication, as well as your grounding and soothing approach to every situation. Thank you for your wonderful energy!

Thank you to my other lovely collaborators, who met me with such vulnerability, generosity and trust:
@tattarchee
@ikaay.jpg
@circlelithic
@castro.butchblood
@hatfidkin
@margomool
@transchorus

Thank you to everyone who helped me with set design and tree making, especially @109.101.111.119 who put so much into this aspect of the project and helped pull it all together:
@loubrown468
@mokosko
fern schwartz

Thank you to @filipskibaa for these beautiful photos, @juliette_boreal for lending me so much equipment and all your continuous support, and @simpl3_trick for helping me film and our lovely conversations.

Thank you to all my friends, and everyone who came to view the film - i am so moved by the openness and kindness of that evening and you all!

what a gift it is to be alive and express our aliveness together. what an honour to share my heart with the earth 💜 by @fish____boy

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Bodies In Bloom is an immersive installation creating a multi-sensory environment to explore the expansive ways trans and nonbinary people use embodiment practices to connect to their inner worlds and find grounding, healing and relating.

This installation is an invitation to slow down, notice the sensation of your breath, the way you hold your chest. What does it mean to have this body? When the world attempts to drag us outside of ourselves, how can we practice returning home?

this friday 4pm to 8pm ~ link in bio 🌿

all my wonderful collaborators:
@tattarchee
@ikaay.jpg
@circlelithic
@castro.butchblood
@margomool
@transchorus
@hatfidkin
@abeingonfire
@itmaybemark
@109.101.111.119
@simpl3_trick by @fish____boy

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4 months ago

february unravelled, unfolding the stitching through the fabric of time pulling loose my memory and shifting me forever onwards. my mind eager to live in imagined places, i gently continue to pull back into myself. how instead to mirror this season? i will grow slowly, my bones still ache from winter chill i need not run before i am warm. i am finding in stillness lies uncomfortable truths so i practice sipping softly. i hold what is sacred to my heart, i let it keep me feeling by @fish____boy

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7 months ago

i will cut myself out of the belly of the snake

⋆ 𖤓 ⋆˚࿔ ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁

happy imbolc ✧.* the land begins to quietly hum with the promise of new life, yet the world has felt especially heavy and i have been ill so i decided to make something in one day. i went for a walk and wrote a poem and made something that feels like an ode to exactly where i am right now, in all ways. i am so grateful to live by a body of water, to see the birds, feel the mud, listen to the trees. i return again and again to the earth, with heartbreak, derealisation, grief, joy, clarity, love by @fish____boy

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9 months ago

the darkened days pass through my body, a silent rapid, time submerged twisting shape underwater. my fingers tense to hold onto everything, a reflex still woven into the fabric of my palms. how to calm a heart beating in the river of unknown? feel the mud between your toes, let the fire warm the grief in your stomach, hold your friends, give your body to the wind, soft-boil your bones to jelly by @fish____boy

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10 months ago

came to this earth to love with my full chest and be a silly guy with my friends 🐛 by @fish____boy

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10 months ago

november feeling like moving to the woods to live alone by candlelight and sit with my heart long enough to know the meaning of its beating. time melts and days dip in and out. a body both tired and hopeful is one i will never not know by @fish____boy

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a year ago

sometimes halloween is more tricks than treats ~ so i continue to bare my teeth and growl by @fish____boy

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a year ago

today i have been taking testosterone for one year!¡!¡ 🌀🌱 even though i do remember the continuous dysphoria i experienced before, it also doesn’t really feel like i ever lived without T ~ time and memory are continually melting and bending and it is a strange experience to grow up feeling both like you are all you have ever been and, at the same time, entirely fragmented

it is difficult to write words that feel like they fully capture the complex shifting swirling experience of gender // i may write more soon,,,

but i do always have words for my gratitude. my life is continuously shaped by the people who i love, whose love for me gives me the gift of being known. to have friends & family who cherish my ways of being and give me space and kindness in a world that has felt claustrophobic and cruel is something i treasure every single day. thank you for helping me be brave. thank you for holding my heart gently in your hands

love, bug xxxxxx by @fish____boy

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