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It has been 365 days since that dreadful Wednesday morning, waking up to panicked screams and rushing down as quick as I could to see what had happened. The memory of you lying there lifeless is a memory that will forever haunt me. There’s been so many different thoughts that have run through my head this past year.. Wondering if I had checked on you before I went to sleep, would you still be here? Wondering if we had pushed you harder to go to the doctors when you felt ill, maybe they would have caught on quicker.. But there is no use living with ‘what ifs’, it will not change anything. It won’t change how myself, Lauren & Kyle will continue to grow older and experience life knowing that we won’t have the woman who gave us this life experiencing it with us. But it does change how we, or at least I, view those experiences.
There is not a single day that goes by that I do not think of you. You were the most amazing mother I could have asked for.
I know I was a pain, we had our moments but I genuinely couldn’t have asked for a better role model. You taught me so much. Lessons that I will continue to take note from each and every single day. But despite all that, I miss you. So much more than words can describe. I never thought I’d miss hearing Ed Sheeran’s “Thinking out loud” blasting from the Alexa at 6am every morning.. or that I’d miss you texting me at 8pm and saying “Make sure I don’t stay up late” with the silly laughing emojis you loved, or that I’d miss the (albeit annoying) sound of your wheelchair whenever you’d move throughout the house. I miss being able to sit down with you and talk about life, and my interests and while you didn’t entirely understand them.. You listened. You cared… until I talked for too long in which case you’d tell me to go away because you wanted to watch the Darts or play Bingo. But the simplest end to this message is:
While 365 days have passed, my love for you has not - nor will ever. I love you, forever and always.
Until we meet again mammy🫶 by @itsmaxpower_

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2 years ago

happy 41st birthday to the mother I loved and lost.
While today was supposed to be an incredible day, in two days it marks two months since we lost you.
I don’t typically do sad instagram posts but I feel as it’s important to share this today, because I know she would haunt me if I didn’t.. maybe.
In the span of two months, so much has changed.
I’ve had to learn how to live without you, despite not ever believing I would do that before I was much much older, but life happens.
While I would love to sit and say you lit up every room you went into, I know otherwise. Not because you weren’t incredible company but simply because you would never want to waste electricity, and you preferred sitting in the sitting room in the dark watching netflix.
You truly changed the lives of everyone you met, and I don’t think there’s enough words in the dictionary to describe how you did it.
But I can say, you taught me the most important thing about life & that is to just live it.
You went through tremendous hardships and it never truly felt as if the world was on your side. But that didn’t stop you from trying your damn best to enjoy the life you had.
From those silly water fights in the kitchen, to trying to steal your wheelchair back when we would steal it to just sitting down and watching a movie, you enjoyed it all.
And if you told me three months ago that I would be writing this post instead of rushing down to your room at 12A.M and bothering you with happy birthdays, I truly would not have believed you.
You were doing so incredibly well and I miss you, much more than words can describe.
I hope wherever you are, you are reminding the world that you are more capable than they could ever believe.
Rest easy , happy birthday mam❤️ by @itsmaxpower_

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3 years ago

have been missing the homies, time to miss them again :’( by @itsmaxpower_

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a month ago

one day i’ll do a month recap on time by @itsmaxpower_

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4 months ago

april was a ride of emotions… diva almost down by @itsmaxpower_

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5 months ago

march was a RIDE ‼️ by @itsmaxpower_

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6 months ago

budapest <3 by @itsmaxpower_

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8 months ago

life recently <3 taken in Munich, Germany by @itsmaxpower_

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9 months ago

i’m gonna move to this country one day mark my words ‼️ by @itsmaxpower_

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a year ago

loving life one KDH song at a time by @itsmaxpower_

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a year ago

ich leibe München 💙 by @itsmaxpower_

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a year ago

day in paris.. the tower was cool and all but it wasn’t the dublin spire by @itsmaxpower_

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a year ago