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Akeldama

@judasflower

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⚜️ Queer OCs & Art | 18+ Themes
⚜️ Intersex | Gender Non-Conforming
⚜️ @beware_the_idiots_of_march 💍
⚜️ ‘89 | Michigan | DID System

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⚜️ Meet The Artist ⚜️
Today is my birthday. I haven’t done one of these in a while and wanted something that better represented the person I’ve become over these past few years. You can call me Akel (short for Akeldama,) a name used collectively to represent all facets of me.
Here’s a bit more about me:
- I’m an artist and storyteller. My first novel is currently in the works. I also work as an editor and a consultant for various publications.
- I was born and raised in Michigan, and it is always going to be home to me. I currently live in Metro Detroit with my partner and our small family of two amazing dogs, a very sweet cat, and a small flock of quails.
- Outside of my presence here I don’t really exist much on social media. I have a Facebook and Bluesky that I forget about and that’s it.
- I have degrees in wildlife biology (environmental science/conservation biology), cultural anthropology/world folklore, and canine behavioral science.
- I am American with heavy (and sometimes complicated) influences from my Irish, Sicilian, Romanian, and North African heritage.
- I create stories and art that explore themes that are personal to me, including a complicated relationship with Catholicism and the traumas and triumphs that have shaped me.
- Symbolism plays an extremely important role in my work, though some things remain heavily personal and their deeper meanings may not always be shared.
- I am biologically Intersex and have become more confident in being open about this facet of my life in recent years.
- I was diagnosed DID many years ago and it has been a part of my daily life since before I can remember.
- I grew up as a gay, alternative club kid in the early/mid 2000s and that lifestyle shaped a lot of who I still am today.
- I am a s*x worker and have worked almost any genre of adult entertainment you can think of (including fssw.)

Ultimately, I am a lot of things. I don’t fit nearly anywhere. My “aesthetic” is an eclectic messiness that will never be an organized, tailored feed for social media. And I’m learning to love that.

#meettheartist #originalartist #ocartist by @judasflower

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7 months ago

Artist Collab!! @bardboyart and I decided to draw our OCs Jehan (Bard’s) and Theo together. The two share some similarities, namely a complicated history with their faith and organized religion. So it was nice to draw something of them both letting go together and enjoying the moment, away from all the messiness of life. Bard did the sketch, I lined, colored, rendered. Swipe to see the start and finish.

I enjoyed this project so much and I’ll definitely be setting aside more time for collabs like this with mutuals again soon. 🙏 by @judasflower

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a month ago

FINALLY have Art Fight refs done. Currently working on figuring out how to upload characters, creating bios/permissions and all that tedious stuff that everyone else did weeks ago 🥲 This is my first year doing this, so I’m still figuring everything out and life had been unexpectedly hectic through May and June. I almost gave up and put it off until next year again, but it’s been a goal to participate for so many years that I managed to push through. Better late than never, right?
#artfight #artfight2026 #artfightfirstyear #artfightteamtragedy #artfightoc by @judasflower

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3 months ago

Some art of Damien I did a while back. I realized I hadn’t drawn him in a while and decided to draw a part of his story that I don’t usually touch on as much. Damien ended up working alongside a Canadian unit during WWII and became specialized as a sniper. It was his ticket to freedom out of Europe and made it possible for him to move to America after the war. His abilities make him perfectly fit for the job - his vision is much better than an average human, his night vision is even better, and manually straining his eyes in a certain way even allows him to see some infrared. He’s also very well adapted to cold climates and can function in temperatures with windchills well below freezing without feeling cold. All that combine made him a valuable set - enough that the people around him tended to ignore some of the more suspicious behaviors and “coincidences” that came with him. Despite being generally antisocial, he ended up bonding with the men in his unit, even having a brief, secretive romance at one point. In moderns times, he doesn’t talk about his past, especially this era of his life. But he doesn’t occasionally accept jobs that utilize his old skills - and that’s what I decided to draw here. He’s a little older looking, more mature, and his hair is longer, in a more modern cut than what he’d kept it back then. (Star little tidbit: when he goes on these kinds of jobs, he sometimes switches his cross with his old dog tags - one of the tags is from that man he’d once briefly loved. Those tags actually have their own whole their story about what happened between Damien and his lover (and his lover’s later family) after the war.) by @judasflower

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10 months ago

Finished commission of @bungo.stray.cat OC Shizuka. I absolutely love this character (Kai is my favorite, but she’s close competition!) Thank you so much for commissioning me! 🙏 by @judasflower

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a year ago

“I can fix him.” No, you can’t.
Theo O’Connor is one of those people that, instead of fighting his demons, devoured them. He looked into the darkest things that found him and smiled back. He didn’t embrace them, he consumed them. He looked the devil in the face and said “I could undo you. I could be worse.”
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Sometimes coping with trauma isn’t becoming better than your abuser. Sometimes it’s sacrificing everything to survive. Sometimes it’s embracing being “the bad guy” to destroy the people that hurt you. Sometimes it’s becoming worse, and devouring the person who hurt you when you were young, defenseless. Sometimes it’s selling your soul for the power to destroy them. And sometimes it isn’t a noble thing - sometimes you don’t care about keeping future victims out of their hands. Surviving can be selfish. Sometimes to survive in the dark, we become bigger monsters than the ones who made us.
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(Note: those aren’t his hands. They’re a bit too big, and Theo doesn’t wear a wedding ring.) taken in Hell, Michigan by @judasflower

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a year ago

💛💜 𝐈𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐱 💜💛
Pride is never really over. We don’t suddenly stop being who we are at 12:01 on July 1st. Our struggles are year-round, highlighted by a month and some specific days. But even then, many of us aren’t celebrated or seen nearly as much. I’ve notice a dramatic lack of inclusion in the LGBTQIA+ community when it comes to Intersex folks. It’s disheartening. I’ve silently stopped liking and supporting activists who need constant reminders to include us, and especially during June I realized how much it actually hurts. Seeing people stand up for everyone else, but when they’re asked to include Intersex I’ve gotten so many deflective responses and outright attacks from members of the queer community - just for asking for inclusivity. The I in LGBTQIA+ is for Intersex. We have always been here, always been part of the community, and always been just as marginalized and at risk of harm as anyone else in the community. But there’s a strange unwillingness to include us, and I cannot understand why. I thought maybe it’s because people don’t understand what Intersex is, but that shouldn’t matter. You shouldn’t have to understand someone else’s painful experience in order for it to be valid. And a quick google search could clear up any basic questions. I even have a post explaining it myself. Intersex people exist, and we’re tired of being treated like ghosts. Often times, I only see us being brought up as a form of whataboutism against terfs and bigots, or toted as “mutants” on videos of animals. Sometimes it feels like that’s all I am to people - a plus-one for their argument in a comment section, or some X-Men joke on a video of a cat. Even at Pride events, Intersex representation is slim. With a whole month to celebrate and be seen, it’s ironic that June has made me feel like a ghost in my own house. by @judasflower

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a year ago

🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️ 🧱 P💥R💥I💥D💥E 🧱 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️
Do not go gentle into that goodnight.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light!

June has been such a long month. We are tired. We are angry. We are hopeful. We are made of fire. We stand together.

I wanted to draw something for Pride Month (I try to draw something every year.) This year has been different. Instead of happy kisses or sass, it’s anger and sadness and frustration and rage against so much oppression. I feel like we’re going backwards, and I miss the tenderness and softness of years before. Those brief days we touched our dreams, made them real. When “love is love” was something powerful. Now everything feels raw and vicious and hollow. Almost hopeless. Almost. But there is a fire in me, and it’s inside you too. We exist. They cannot ignore us. We miss the softness of an earlier time, but we rage now, teeth bared, and will not go gentle into that goodnight. Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
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❌ Please do not trace or heavily reference my art and/or characters. by @judasflower

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a year ago

Marcus & Ares
I wanted something to motivate me to write. These two will eventually get their own book - or at least, that’s my goal. This is the idea I had for the cover (which will be done by another artist.) I haven’t settled on a title yet, and the plot is still being refined… but it’s a goal I’m setting for myself to at least write the full story before the end of this year. (Pray for me.) by @judasflower

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🧡🔥♥️ Happy one year to these two. 🧡🔥♥️
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I’ve been chipping away at this art for months but finally managed to finish it, just in time for the anniversary of the night they met.
Casca 🧡(left) @beware_the_idiots_of_march
Xeden ♥️(right) @judasflower by @judasflower

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Sometimes you don’t need words. Sometimes you need someone who is fluent in silence to sit beside you and just breathe. ❣️
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Decided to repost this publicly. Casca belongs to @beware_the_idiots_of_march / Xeden (the large beasty) is mine. by @judasflower

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2 years ago

Most people here probably don’t know, but I actually started out as an animal artist, which quickly became anthro/furry stuff. I didn’t start drawing humans much until later into high school. These three were my main characters for most of my early art career (and regularly up until 4am on Furcadia like a total nerd back in the days of dial up internet!)

Xiki Seite was my true-sona for years. She helped me through my preteen and early teen years of being a socially awkward kid with nerdy interests, a shit home life, depression, and very few irl friends. She was the me I wanted to be during that time - cool looking, badass, confident, popular, sexy - everything I wasn’t. I was also obsessed with cats and Egyptian mythology (obviously) so that’s where her inspiration came from.

Serenity Dawn was originally a side character who became more, probably became I was struggling a lot with things like gender and identity. Despite being AFAB the feminine, girly things never felt right. I never connected to them. Serenity was a sona that became sort of a lense to explore the possibility of what I “should be like” if I could just embrace what society demanded I be. She ended up being a soft, kind person with wealth and resources to help others. Originally I had intended for her to be a Mean Girl™️ but she ended up being a genuinely good, solid kind of friend instead.

Bingo started out as a place to be an angry teenager. She was reckless and stupid and held a lot of anger issues that I struggled with back then. Somehow she ended up a teen mom (her boyfriend is another hyena character named Ripley, their daughter is Angelica.) She ended up scrapping herself out of the dirt and channeling all her anger and frustration into kickboxing, then MMA. She wins to support her baby girl. Angelica ends up going to college and lands a job at NASA (Bingo cries at her graduation.) Rip still works in a coal mine or something, idk.
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#furry #furryart #furryartist #furryoc #furryartcommissions #furryartistsofinstagram #fursona #fursonaart #throwbackthursday #ocglowup #fursonarevamp #hyenafursona #horsefursona #catfursona #fursonadesign #furrydesign #furcadia #anthro #anthroart #anthrooc by @judasflower

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