Instagram story viewer> @kendevibe> Posts

not even ken anymore

@kendevibe

95

followers

64

following

conjuror of vibes
vibe city 🌆 population me 💁🏽‍♀️

POSTS STORIES REELS TAGGED

you people make me sick
but im working on me right now by @kendevibe

9

0

18 days ago

recently and more
~
this feels like no place for the sound of my voice but a collage of thought in sentences. making videos is fun and anxiety inducing. clean pic of the moon. been feeling nostalgic, retrogradiously nostalgic. school’s coming back soon. went to see waiting for laundry. jolly good show. running out of things to say and that’s so unlike me. accepting others for who they are. accepting myself for who i am. how can i only be so involved towards better for me. ive never loved a man more than the stage. don’t think i ever will. somehow still typing. scared of being overbearing, misconceived, anxious. scared of who i am now. caring less of what others think of me, maybe i should stop thinking of them too. business is booming, time is zooming, life is looming over the clouds. by @kendevibe

6

1

2 months ago

before you ask, i literally have no idea
~
im running out of things to say. i could always say nothing. i drafted this already. social media is full of mess ups. life too. let me know how we feel about the cleaning time lapse. i just played in the dishes fr. i hope you havent seen any of this yet. time is closing in. cant you tell? can you hear that? the sax o school ring and wail in the distance. there is a man in every house. and a monster too. sometimes one. sometimes both. there is peace in the silence. there is harmony in the rage. i have a feeling i am going in the direction of where i want to be. life is gonna change, it will be beautiful by @kendevibe

3

2

2 months ago

this is me trying not to try too hard
~
i think im ready for a lot, coming into understandings, appreciating the flow of it all. sometimes i feel anxious and lethargic after coming off a big high or when i know a bigger one is coming. my instincts will tell me its better to recluse into myself, get it together to a point where i can do it with a smile on my face. if i only smile as a way to keep you from knowing i feel anything else, what’s the point of feeling at all? i’m happy, im grateful, im having fun, and i still crash. and not even violently, i just land. this is fine, this is ok. this is where i’ll be until im back in the air again. im getting out of glorifying the high. the view from an airplane is made beautiful by the view below it by @kendevibe

10

0

3 months ago

2 posts in one month. i couldn’t dream this
~
seems i’ve been catching up with myself. my many sides have been showing. i have been chasing after something i cant name. does it mean i dont deserve it? im trying to make the most out of everything going on. the waters are getting calmer. i cant tell if a storm is coming or if this is the culture of the season. when it comes i wonder where i’ll go. i love what im making for myself and feel like i just got control of any of this and its like steering a ship. you have to know when its gonna rain and ride thru it remembering there’ll be a rainbow, and not every time. when it comes, its like magic. starling in the crows nest, tell me what feasts you dream of by @kendevibe

11

1

3 months ago

i could never get enough and i am satisfied
~
6 months. i can hardly tell where ive been. i can just tell im getting closer. so is everything else. im trying to get out more, hardly but really. community is the solution to this deteriorating existence. i feel fine. i just have to keep feeling fine. some people make it better, others make it worse. spent some time on the other end of the earth, just to see what it was like. addicting. something about coming home that felt like crashing back to earth. and ive changed, so why is it so hard to be changed? my life is so full. fully moving at full speed. and i almost don’t have time to tell where im going. so when u see me slowing down smiling more, it’s because im savoring it. missing things that are memories already. trying to make the most of whats in front of me before it all closes in. i can’t get enough. i can taste the flavor code designed for my tongue and the tang of a life meant for me. everthing closes in as i come crashing back to earth, realizing i can make it by @kendevibe

17

2

3 months ago

2025 so far.
~
where do i begin? i am so proud of myself and grateful for the experiences life brings to me. thank God. i dont know what im doing all the time but the world continues to work endlessly in my favor. i keep cracking out of this shell over and over again. im continuing to grow into and forgive myself and in turn others around me. in less than a month ill be back on stage. ive been in acting and script analysis classes. you’d never remember you’re living a prayer until you take a moment like this. a post. a reflection. ive been journaling and looking at the stars. i realize how strong my support is when i feel ive been stripped of everything and the world is shunning me. sometimes i’m my own biggest hater. other times my love for myself is just as blinding and inhibiting. it doesnt take me being down too long to come up with a million reasons why i’m still up. these days life is the real dream. thank God by @kendevibe

28

4

2 years ago

to my freshman year and all that came of it

i met a lot of cool people and yeah. it was fun. i think i could do it 3 more times. in the honors college, two orgs, and a 3.5 gpa. i worked 2 shows and hosted a Grammy’s event. i had this really crazy feeling again being a freshman and being new in a place. i’m so proud of my friends who graduated but am so insanely sad to see them go. some of them i just met coming here and now they have degrees and i’ll never see them walking on campus again but they did it! and if they can do it i can too. i just want to thank all the people that helped me make it this far. this year was so fun and it literally wouldn’t have been half the experience without people in my life like my parents, friends, and family. freshman year is over and summer is here! by @kendevibe

66

10

2 years ago

last vegas dump 3/3

next time i mention vegas it will be the complete vlog
who is rod stewart?
never forget where you came from
stay nobu
who cares what you’ve seen before by @kendevibe

6

0

3 years ago

lociversary post
~
ive been meaning to make this post for a minute but college life doesn’t let up. i came here to talk about my loc journey. locing my hair up was a very impromptu decision. i was out of town and needed something long lasting for at least a week. i remember being on the fence about them because i thought they wouldn’t suit me. i didn’t think they looked good initially. i didn’t like that my head looked so big and that the hair on the sides didn’t touch my shoulders. then people started asking was i gonna loc up. when i had them for a couple months people talked trash saying they weren’t locs yet. more months later and i love the way my hair looks. i have friends who retwist it for me. im still learning to do it myself. happy one year to this head of hair of mine. yes i am still posting a vlog. there is some teaser footage at the end. happy one year to my locs🥰 by @kendevibe

24

1

3 years ago

Vegas Dump 2/?

More life and miscellany in Vegas. Instagram eats first. Here are more pictures from Vegas. Now with a food review. The food there is terribly overpriced for the quality but not all of it is bad. A lot of it wasn’t bad. Some of it was just mediocre. All the pictured meals in this post were pretty good. A restaurant I visited whose food I really enjoyed was the Grand Lux Cafe. 8/10 would recommend. It was my first time and I want to leave room for improvement. Still expensive. taken in Grand Luxe Cafe At The Venetian by @kendevibe

9

0

3 years ago

Vegas Dump 1/?

I didn’t talk much about it but I went to Vegas and recorded a lot of stuff so one day there will be a Vegas vlog. I had a lot of fun. I don’t know why I never thought I’d go to Vegas. It was a very grounding experience. Talk about unlikely feelings in unlikely places. I almost feel like Vegas could be a place I belong. It felt like another city but then again I was only there for a weekend and I’m not even 21. I’ll be back by @kendevibe

10

2

3 years ago