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Laura Lazas

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October is Pregnancy + Infant Loss Awareness Month. Today I want to say something, I want to share from the heart.

Bereaved parents don’t need a special month or week to remember...they remember their child 365 days a year, whether the world acknowledges their loss or not.

Whether their baby has been lost early or late in pregnancy, at birth or in early years...they remember.

Baby loss awareness is about shining a light on this taboo topic, a subject that so many are afraid of and so many run from.

But I want to say this, baby loss is not just a story of grief, of pain and of tears, it’s a story of love, of celebration, of becoming a mother and parent.

It’s a place where grief and love collide, it’s where dreams lay shattered on the floor, but simultaneously a new view of life can be birthed and reborn.

It is only when the silent scream has been released from your soul, when your heart has been broken in two, that you discover this depth of love and pain even exists...so when the tears are falling, joy is also breaking forth.

Baby loss is a journey, a lifelong journey...and if you take part in Baby Loss Awareness month let me say thank you. Thank you from me, but also thank you from every parent around the world who has lost a child…because when you share their post, when you hit like, they will see you, they will hear you, and their child’s life will be brought to light for another moment here on earth.

So today and every day I will stand with others and celebrate my life. I will find joy in the smallest of things, as this is the gift my lost child gave me, but the space she left behind will always remain, for this is my child, and I am her parent...and this month I will honor every child that ran ahead.

Even on the worst days, we still have purpose.

My reason is Lainey and all of your babies that should be here. 💜

I am still here to carry her legacy and share her too short life with the whole world.

My purpose didn’t die with her.
My purpose was born with her.

She is still my purpose and all of my reasons.🪻#LaineyMae by @lauralazas

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3 years ago

The only way I can explain this pain is that every cell in my body that created my daughter is on fire longing to hold her again. It’s a physical pain only a mother would know. It’s in my bone marrow. Just a deep yearning and howling to touch her, to feel her and hold her.

Every time the grief steals my breath, I remind myself the love was and is worth the pain.

It’s not just the death we have to grieve. It’s all the hopes and dreams of what would have been, and will no longer be.

Life was ok one minute. Sixty seconds later my world imploded. If you haven’t lived through one of these life-changing minutes, feel mightily blessed.

The hole in my heart still stings constantly and steadily, but it also reminds me that you were once here with me. I don’t mind that you took a piece of me with you, because I know we’ll be together again someday, and I’ll be whole.

I obviously think about all that was taken from me when I lost her, especially the future. But, sometimes I also stop and think to myself, “Wow, the world was robbed of such a beautiful person.”

Spring will come again, and in the very heart of all my grief lives the only person so beautiful and real that even my sorrowing heart can sing and know that everything sad will come untrue, and the tears I am still crying will be wiped away, gathered into a bottle, and come no more.

Clinging to the dawn yet to come. Living in the tension, fighting for joy. Grateful for glimmers of hope and tiny flickers of light in the darkness.

#RaisingLaineyMae #LaineyMaeLazas #AngelBaby #BereavedMother #GrievingMother #InfantLoss #InfantLossSurvivor by @lauralazas

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4 years ago

College bff reunion 💜
How lucky I am to have deep soulful friends like them.

#newbootgoofin👢👢 by @lauralazas

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19 hours ago

Work besties 👯‍♀️👯‍♀️ by @lauralazas

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21 hours ago

Meet Squeekers, the latest Lazas animule. A random chocolate chip fell out of the sky onto its strawberry hut and Callaway ate it because she was the culprit 😂🍓🛖🍫

Our hamster named Gus got lost in the walls and died and the whole house stunk growing up. Summers were the worst. Squeeks bringing back those memories 🐹👃🏽 by @lauralazas

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6 days ago

Happy Labor Day, y’all! We’ve always been funky! taken in Gulf Shores, Alabama by @lauralazas

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21 days ago

You get what you get and don’t throw a fit! Fumblerooski: a Lazas family tradition 💀🫠🥴 by @lauralazas

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a month ago

Always
Stayed my brother.
Stayed my friend.

In the wilderness
My shelter.

Holding on tight to each other.

Baby Jakey love you forever.

Also missing our big brother. by @lauralazas

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a month ago

Call your brother.
Take that trip.
Experience that adventure.
You will never regret it.

💚 taken in Deep Well Trailhead by @lauralazas

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a month ago

Christmas in July 🎄

Four years later, and I still can’t find a reason to take down my Lainey Mae Christmas tree.

Something about the lights at night is comforting.
Makes my girl feel so near. by @lauralazas

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2 months ago

Rain couldn’t wash away this vibe. Cheers to girls who make every forecast a good one. ⛈️🥂 #twerk by @lauralazas

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3 months ago

Second annual team outing on the Harpeth. One for the books. Such a solid crew! Me and Ti shared a canoe and immediately got trapped in the rapids. We paddled straight into the weeds upon boarding which set the tone for the rest of our travels. Hit every rock in the river, got stuck 27 times. Definitely have Limes Disease from all the bugs, worms, spiders, and ticks that fell on me from the broken branches of that tree. But team building and camaraderie 10/10. Next year we’ll be getting our own kayaks. taken in Foggy Bottom Canoe Rocks! by @lauralazas

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3 months ago