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The caption I wrote before this was too long, so I’ll probably just post it on your page. It took a min to put this up because every time I looked at your pictures, I would just fall the fuck apart. I was at your house the other day. Sat in your chair. Pretended you were still there. And you were asking me when the last time was that I brushed my hair, lol I’m wearing your bathrobe right now, still. Haven’t taken it off since I left. Just kind of wearing it like a giant flannel 🤣 I guess it just makes me feel safe and protected like I did when I was around you. Strong even when I don’t want to be. The list of people I look up to is getting a lot smaller, now. You called me to come over the day before you went in. Tried to get you to drink the breathe easy tea that I brought you. Tried to convince you to just get in the car with me right then & let me take you to the hospital and you wouldn’t let me. Said you had to pay rent first. It’s like you were preparing. I kissed you goodbye and left before you could see me cry. Promised me you would go the next day. And when you sent me a selfie from the hospital bed 24 hours later… I thought you were gonna be OK. That it wasn’t too late to save. But that was the last one I would get from you… before you went… away. Kings and queens you always said to me. The last of a dying breed. We have lost more legends than you could put back beers on a wall. Somehow, now I’m hurting more than any and all. But I know you wouldn’t want me to mope around like this, you’d tell me to suck it up. So all I can do is celebrate you, DO BETTER… and see you at the end of the world party. You were the Peter Pan to my Wendy. Does this mean I have to leave Neverland now? That I have to grow up? because it’ll never be the same without you, anyways. Love you, FAM. Thanks for letting me, just be me. As ratchet as we wanna be. Every day all day. I just miss you so fucking much. I think it’s gonna take me a while to get over this one, though, at least I can find solace in your slumber, you traded the pain for, and you don’t have to pay rent in heaven lol 😂💔 by @masmaris13

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4 months ago

St. Anthony, ST. AnThONy*! Please look around…. MY SUPER SPECIAL JACKET (that I designed and sewed and spent a ridiculous amount of hours stitching every little patch on and every modification MYSELF for burning man… And even has my NAME on it… MUFFIN*) is HoPeFuLLy* NOT STOLEN… and just LOST… and MUST be found. Now, praying to the patron saint of lost articles has brought me quite some luck in the past 😉 and I’m praying like hell that it works this time. I worked so hard for so long on this jacket and it really meant the whole wide world to me and now it’s missing. If you could find it in your cold little black hearts to like and SHARE and if 🔥ANYONE SEES THIS JACKET🔥 most likely around the 303 area… PLEASE CONTACT ME. EVERYTHING YOU DO COMES BACK TO YOU TIMES THREE. REMEMBER THAT. 😇🙏🏼🔮 I have good faith it will be returned to me. please and thank you. 🖤 by @masmaris13

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4 months ago

How did I get so LUCKY? blessings on BLESSINGS for winning the best mom anyone could EVER be, and choosing to be the birth giver of this challenging little star seed from the sea…that is ME. Used to tell me I came from the Pleadies and I see now that everything you did was only because you loved me UNCONDITIONALLY. Difficulties, maybe 🤷‍♀️😬🤦‍♀️ but I know UNQUESTIONABLY… that i am so much MOORE of a better treasure because i had YOU… as my greatest investor. I just can’t wait til the payoff proves you proud and all you remember is my splendor once it’s rendered. 👑
I can’t even remember the last day I got to spend a Mother’s Day with Mi Madre. SUPER THANKFUL 4 THiiiiS!!! Was PRICELE$$. All LOVE. Every day we are trying harder and learning each other and getting better. Having this lil timeline oasis to spend with her has been so healing for us both. Long overdue. & I would’ve LOVED to fly her out to Vegas or love bomb the shit out of her with 20 stupid tiny presents just to see her smile, or put her up in the “nicest f*cking hotel I’ve ever been in!!!” (because THAT was a trip we STILL be laughing about! 🤣) or give her the nicest purse she said she has ever seen. 💜 The last year has been a lil too heavy in so many ways than one that I can’t really live the life anymore I have in the past. But for us, it was the best yet. Because showing your love and appreciation for someone who has sacrificed so much and been my rock in SoooO* many HARD places, doesn’t have to cost a dollar. I just told her I didn’t want her to lift her finger or do anything the whole day I wanted to make her tea with fresh muddled mint and cook her breakfast from scratch (white chocolate blueberry pancakes for the record 🤤😆), give her a facial and paint her toes, and just binge watch a show we actually BOTH liked and agreed on (SHOCKING 🙌🏾). Because she deserves the world and i wish it was on a yacht in the Mediterranean… but I gotta save something for next year 😉
This gorgeous lil gem above was the day I won my first beauty pageant. Miss Fraulein Texas YEE HAW 😹 too cute. LOVE U 2 DA 🌙 ❤️😘 by @masmaris13

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5 months ago

I guess now I know that’s why you weren’t answering the phone. DRu… there was NO ONE like you. You were sO bRiLLiaNt*! And candid and funny when you thought no one was listening. A real muthaf’in pioneer in the industry. You are so important that people don’t even know… I love you, my brother and my friend. I knew from the day we met, that there was something different about you. Thank you. For being you. See you at the end of the world, Party. Xoxo 🖤👑🥺 by @masmaris13

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6 months ago

LoOk @ this foxy lil minX*!
#dearmama
#milf? by @masmaris13

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a year ago

On second thought… this would make a GREAT… Halloween costume… 🤔 #droolingonmyself #nitrousmafia by @masmaris13

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a year ago

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a year ago

R.i by @masmaris13

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a year ago

Do u luv ME? Mis$ me? Even just a bit? Wanna put me in your suitcase and take me somewhere… Or have me laid across your chest… Well now you can! If you are lucky enough to find yourself down nERrr in TAMPA FLORIDA… the sunny place for shady people 😉😎 you absolutely MUST stop in to see my OG fam FAM luv @vanilla_goon stop shop @wrongkrowdclothing cuz he’s been keepin’ the streets STEEZY since the golden age of our NY era…. LOVE THIS lil throwback turned thread reminiscent of another fine Florida memory of the decadence and debauchery that is @dirtybirdcamp 😹💦 by @masmaris13

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2 years ago

It’s been a year now, I guess, since you chose that exit… point… it’s funny I can still hear your voice in my head all the time. I watch videos of us doing stupid shit, being silly. Shopping at the dollar tree lol i’ve been working on this art piece for you for so long. I guess I just really miss you. It’s so weird when you hear from someone almost every day and then… You don’t. There is a huge void left in my life where you used to be. I wanted so bad to heal you to take away all your pain. I felt like if I just loved the shit out of you and then I loved even harder then… it might work. I just wanted to tell you that you were beautiful, even without the wigs or the make up. Or all the cute little costumes and you’re smart and you were everything that you thought you weren’t. I tried so many times to get you to just pack it up and run away and just leave that town with me. start over. Try to find joy in life again…. which I have not. So you’re not missing anything lol 😹 BUTT… most of all…I wanted to thank you. For being the only person in my life that I feel like I’ve ever been able to truly be myself around. that didn’t judge and just accepted me…. For being me. I wonder every day if what you did was intentional… Or if it was an accident. Or if I could blame the people that were around you for… anything. 🤦‍♀️ but I didn’t want to. Because I knew this is what you wanted. It must’ve been. Because for that whole last year before… When you were going into a trance, you would talk about it. I thought we could reprogram you erase all those fatal thoughts of giving up. I knew if I couldn’t, then you were stuck here with me because I knew we were meant for so much more. I just thought you did, too. I think about you every day probably more than I should. And I’m glad you don’t hurt anymore. Never will there ever be anything in the world like you. For you will forever rank among the very top of my most favorite characters. All aesthetics aside, it never matter what people want you to look like, or how you feel you need to look… but I’ve come to learn and know, that the people in my life who contain the most beauty…were the ones…that had suffered the most by @masmaris13

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2 years ago

🏴😻🙌🏽🖤 by @masmaris13

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2 years ago

R*i*P RaVe iN PiEcE$* & RAGE AGAINST PURGATORY before you rested in pain, my beloved tragedy. on your born day week my lil goth primetress (princess/mistress did i just invent a WORD!? 🤔😂) i honor YOU. EVERYDAY. Because when I first actually started hanging out with you, all those many many moons ago I remember you telling me it was your birthday and we weren’t that close yet, but I took the chance to get to know you a little bit more I told you that you could celebrate for at least a week/month/year in other direction, since it’s all one the same. Spoiled ThE fuck out of you that week and gave you everything you wanted. You cried because he said you never had anything like that before. I couldn’t imagine that no one had ever celebrated this beautiful most exquisite creature that I have ever met. I wanted her to know her worth every day and I wanted her to know how special she truly was. I began to dip my toes into a long overdue fascination with Hypnotherapy on you. I wanted to reprogram you so that you knew that you didn’t need the wigs or the makeup you didn’t need the leather and the lace because you were already good enough. in life I have found that most beautiful people in the world were the ones that had suffered the most. And you my dark little fun-sized fallen angel… will forever be one of my favorites. I love you. Because you were the first person i felt like i could ever really be my true self around. And amidst all the decadence and debauchery, you forgot how important you truly were. I hear your voice in my head all the time and i cant watch an episode of @familyguyfox without the loss of you cuddled up next to me on the couch. You wanted so bad to be the immortalization of living fast dying young and leaving a pretty corpse. There will never be anyone like you. by @masmaris13

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