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it guts me when i see posts about loved ones passing, and i still can’t believe i’m writing this. i truly thought you would live forever, at least another 4 years.

my Mia May. God knows how much you mean to me. my perfect companion, travel buddy, walking partner, strict 4am alarm clock, and my very first baby. after Honey crossed the bridge, i didn’t want another dog but mom said i needed one. i’m so glad i did because i had you. Honey protected me as a child, but you taught me how to love deeply and how to be a mother.

you were there for every chapter of my life. you witnessed my relationship with Jordan, our marriage, our voyage to Japan, every move, both pregnancies, the loss of Maya, and you became a big sister to our daughter, Riona. four vets said you wouldn’t live long, and here you are, a 14-year-old golden girl full of spunk and attitude.

you were my emotional support companion, and honestly, we both had separation anxiety. your love language of skin-to-skin cuddles and endless kisses saved me more times than i can count.

it hurts thinking about a future without you because everything included you. i never closed my door because you always looked for me. forever, i’ll keep it open just for you.

all my doors are open for you, my love. in every lifetime, i will always look for you. in every lifetime, i will always choose you. in every lifetime, you and i are always together somehow. maybe i’ll be the dog and you’ll be the human. but i hope in your next lifetime, you’ll come back to me as my actual child.

Mia, the light of my life, please have fun with your sisters Honey, Oreo, and Maya. eat all the food, sniff all the p-mail, yell at the fridge whenever you want. visit me in my dreams. again, my doors are open for you.

you are forever in me taken in Somewhere Over the Rainbow by @mikkilla

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10 months ago

Our sweet, darling, beautiful Mia May.

It pains me so much to be writing this, as reality slowly creeps in more & more each day, and I’m forced to accept the fact that you’ve truly moved on from this life. No longer is it the fear & worry that loitered in the back of my head for what’s been years—it’s now the ultimate devastating truth that you’ve indeed left us to cross that Rainbow Bridge. I’ve been trying to be strong and adjust to this new reality, but every so often, the facade of having a normal day is interrupted by the sharp pain in my chest when I realize that I haven’t heard your footsteps, or instinctively check if I’ve fed you lunch yet, only to remember the reason I haven’t. My days are hard-wired with these pockets of my life built around you, and while it hurts when I go “oh right, she’s gone”, it’s beautiful in a way, as it’s if your spirit living on in our home.

And what a beautiful home it was because of you. Mikki & I experienced our most vulnerable moments with you. We brought you everywhere & you became an extension of us, teaching us how to parent in how we cared for you, loving you as our own child & preparing us to really lay the foundation of our family. Mikki and I were 18—just kids—when you & Oreo first chose us to look after you. Now we’re in our 30s, and you spent the better part of a year looking after our own kid with us. The 4 of us together truly felt like a home. We felt complete. We were everything I dreamed a family to be, and we always will be. I’ll carry this feeling & these most precious memories with me forever. Thank you for giving us absolutely everything, Mia.

We send you off with the hopes that you’re running again, across the greenest fields, as much as you want and without limitation. That you’re reuniting with your sister Oreo, our precious Maya, and meeting our beloved Honey: all of whom you helped us heal from losing. We hope that you’re eating anything & everything you want, that whenever you cry in the kitchen or scratch at the fridge, all the carrots/greenies/adobo/steak/whatever, is on the other side just for you.

And we hope that you’ll be right there to greet us the way you always do, when we meet again. by @mikkilla

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10 months ago

hi not there @defjayb.kr

moth 1

moth 2

#gno who left their mans to see their mans #feral

all the way in the back but still happy to be here

i’m sat

hahahahahhahahaha i’ll laugh at all of your jokes

u boutta make me akk up chill

sorry jayb we just love you

#got7jayb @defjayb.kr

we had the whole row TO OURSELVESSSSSSSS

feral girls comin in hot with some adhd

oooo shiny (pls don’t fall)

ugh i fell and missed a step then farted 😔

i just be talkin to anyone huh

istG he was lookin right at me!!!!!!!!!!! taken in Palladium Times Square by @mikkilla

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18 days ago

beyond grateful 💓

tarra made miffy so deadass and cute!!!!

the girls’ room made it out of the chat ✨

made a wrong turn but it was a pretty one

surprises were the theme this birthday 🥹

rio’s first yankees game!!!!!

birthday activities continue

odyssey deez….

her biases

with her ninang who loves rm just as much as she does hehehe

what do the knicks and bts have in common?

june 13

#tourlejours

we outside!!!!!!!!!

first bts concert and couldn’t move until “run bts” lolololol

#day1 #bts #metlife

so glad i went to day 2 cos i was no longer on “am i really here at the bts concert??” hypnosis

flexin with our freebies :)))))

made our signs v last minute and still didn’t get to be on the jumbotron SIGH

WE GOT AUTUMN LEAVES AND GOGO

#bts #day2 #arirangworldtour

a spontaneous crazy day was had in baltimore with family

#btsarmy #day1 #arirang #baltimore

rio’s (and tiara & mama nilda’s) first bts concert!!!!!

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birthdays were the worse days but the past consecutive ones have been hitting home and it’s truly healing ❤️‍🩹 taken in We Outside by @mikkilla

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a month ago

our 1 year old knows ball

#fyp #knicks #knickstape #knicksin5 #bingbong taken in Madison Square Garden by @mikkilla

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2 months ago

what a time to be alive

knicks in 5

if you make it to the end, tell me who your bias is taken in Madison Square Garden by @mikkilla

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4 months ago

eric carle forever 🍏🍐🍇🍓🍊🎂🍦🥒🧀🌭🍭🍰🍒🍰🧁🍖🍉 taken in Michener Art Museum by @mikkilla

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5 months ago

seattle big dumper taken in Seattle, Washington by @mikkilla

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6 months ago

as@p lunar new year fashion show 🧧🐎 taken in Princeton University by @mikkilla

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8 months ago

december is heavy. it’s such a strange month that carries a lot of grief and a lot of memories, and it doesn’t really let you forget them. still, there’s something in the air that makes me believe the spirit is alive. i’ve lost too many people in this month, and it’s especially different without Mia. everything feels sharper, quieter, and louder all at once. life moves fast and doesn’t wait, even when your heart needs a minute

but somehow, there’s still warmth here. maybe it’s the lights, the familiar chaos, or the people who stay. what makes this season feel real are the people in my life. it sounds simple, but it’s everything. i’m grateful for the ones who are here that make the mess feel meaningful, who hold space during hard times, who comforts us when we are silently struggling, who remind me that even now, there’s still beauty, joy, and something worth holding onto

merry christmas / happy holidays ✨ hugging you extra tight. love yall and thank you so so much 🤍 taken in Anywhere and Everywhere by @mikkilla

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10 months ago

green for Mia’s favorite snack: Greenies 💚 by @mikkilla

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