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☀️ ➡️ 🍂 | A year ago, I literally wanted to 🤮 at the idea of letting myself be more visible (vulnerable) to people (even those around me), let alone the general public. My mantra had always been to “let the work speak for itself” and it in fact, has. This past week, I’ve been through so many transitions (both professionally and personally), and I’d be lying if I said it didn’t excite me or scare me. I would also be lying if I said imposter syndrome doesn’t rear its ugly 🍑 head every now and then. With the constant need to prove to myself that I am capable and am ready to lead and mentor professionally, even without a college degree or that I am Filipino/a/x enough, even if I haven’t been to the Philippines in over 26+ years or speak/understand the language fluently. I’ve assumed the role of being the primary caregiver of my parents where I truly feel so clueless, because who teaches you how to do this? How do you parent your parents while trying to re-parent yourself? I have these thoughts of whether I am the right person for this. Am I the person to be leading an affinity group? A group whose mission is to center around indulging and sharing Filipino/a/x culture? Even while I’m still learning, and even when I make mistakes?

But, what I have learned, is that it is possible to be both resentful and grateful; in my life, they co-exist. I don’t have to like the lessons I’ve learned, and I don’t have to add it to my “resilience portfolio”. I rely on the folks that help ground me when my mind spirals. I rely on the movement rituals/habits that I’ve developed over the last year at BHN and SBP. I rely on the communities that I’ve connected with. I rely on the creatives that continue to inspire me. I rely on hope that makes me believe that despite all the fcked up sht that I/we witness everyday, that there is another way that we can live and that it doesn’t have to be this way. 🆓🍉 and any/all those under colonial oppression. ❤️‍🔥

♊️🌕 tendencies, truly. My Nicole/Nicole-Ann personas are separate but want to be connected. My brain needs it all to be connected, because I just care so fcking much. taken in Seattle, Washington by @nicoleannn

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2 years ago

PTD LV 💟 | A dream come true, FOR REAL. All the feelings of waiting patiently to see them live for the first (and second time) and yes, I cried! 🥹 I have so much respect, admiration, love, and gratitude for these 7 men for being an outlet of solace and inspiration for me to feel my feelings (even when I keep trying to fight it), work hard and never lose sight of my dream, and love myself unconditionally even when it sounds easy, but it can be difficult. For those who get it, get it. For those who don’t, that’s ok too. Like Kim Namjoon (RM) said, who gives a 💩? Let the haters hate and let the lovers love. 👏🏼

HUGE thank you to: Mercy, (my boss/mentor) for experiencing this with me since the very beginning (yes, I kept me being ARMY a 🤫 lol, IYKYK) and encouraging me to do the “close case study” and report back my findings to you aka countless texting and meetings just so we can make the countless work hours more bearable, my best friend Nat for being here kicking off our first trip together to see our kings - I LOVE YOU NAT! IT IS OUR TURN NOW, we worked hard for this and we will continue to work hard 🎶cue PP 💀🎶, and our partners Gilly and Edgar for supporting us in this. @gillyfred, I know you didn’t quite get this at first, but I am so grateful and lucky that you understand, support, and that I get see you enjoy yourself as ARMY BY ASSOCIATION. I can’t wait to see your concert footage too. ☺️ I love you, Gilly! Can you guess who he gravitates to aka HIS BIAS is? ✌🏼😉

Until next time Bangtan! 💜 We’ll see you again, wherever that may be! 🛩🌏

✨ To my chosen family, let’s keep chasing this excitement together! ✨

PS: There is a lot of screaming/flashing lights/moving, but I was trying to experience rather than be stuck behind my phone the entire time. I’ll try to be better next time. 😅 I have more to post because this experience deserves to be immortalized “on the grid.” Did I say that right? 🤪

#BFB #BBH #B4PJ by @nicoleannn

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4 years ago

reposting bc this is my fav photo! this big little guy makes me soooooooo happy and soooooooo frustrated all within 5 minutes. i love you porkchop and love that you love me and gilly unconditionally! 📸: @neogino
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#porkchopthecorgibutt by @nicoleannn

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10 years ago

i will play this on loop to cheer me up, happy pill for real 🥹 love you hobiiiii, you help me take care of my venus!

bts arirang world tour in los angeles, d4

#bangtansonyeondan #btsarmy #bangtan #jhope taken in SoFi Stadium by @nicoleannn

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a month ago

i'm mentally still in bangtanland~ pardon the feral screams. 🤪

bts arirang world tour in los angeles, california | d-4, september 6, 2026

#bangtansonyeondan #bangtan #btsarmy
##btsarirang taken in SoFi Stadium by @nicoleannn

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a month ago

rare grid post + crying in the club bc i miss bts 😭💜

bts arirang world tour in los angeles day 4

#bangtansonyeondan #bangtan #btsarmy #runbts #arirang taken in SoFi Stadium by @nicoleannn

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a month ago

YTC in Busan & Seoul 💜 • The timing of everything that has happened to lead up to this trip is so remarkable. That’s the best way that I can word it. None of this is coincidence! To be in Korea and to experience the concert and JIMIN’s BIRTHDAY IN BUSAN. Please 😭🫶🏼 secret ARMY me would have never thought this would even be possible. Coming here with my partner and my boss/mentor, two very influential people in my life who’ve empowered me to keep going, keep dreaming, and not to forget to keep living. I have so much love for these two. We’ve been through A LOT together leading up to this - whether it was our day jobs for Mercy and I or outside of work for Gilly and I.

As I’m coming down from the high of being embedded with thousands of ARMYs and the energy that BTS gives, its likely really difficult and confusing for them. As famous as they are, they’re still human beings who need to navigate this situation. As a fan and as much as it hurts because we don’t know what’ll happen next and while we’re continuing to be on this emotional rollercoaster, all I (we) can do is wait (which is NOT my strong suit ♉️), trust and support them, and take care of ourselves and fellow ARMYs until we can see them again. It’s truly amazing the impact that they have. Not only captivating me to the point of tears every single time, but to encourage and inspire us to be LIVING OUR LIVES FOR OURSELVES.

Since June during the Festa dinner, I’ve had so many people poke fun and ask me if I would survive and give me cOnDoLeNcEs assuming they’re “disbanding.” People who project their own unhappiness are so funny 😂 let people enjoy things! Now more than ever, let people have something to look forward to. Let people have a reason to wake up & live, whatever it may be. If it isn’t for you, then scroll and move on.

I’ve said it before and I will say it again, until next time Bangtan, wherever and whenever. 🌏🛩️ Apobangpo (ARMY forever, Bangtan forever) ♾️💜 tearing up as I write this - I just love them so much. 🥲 They are really once in a generation and honestly, once in a lifetime. The best for BTS and ARMY is truly yet to come. (cheesy 🤪) taken in South Korea by @nicoleannn

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4 years ago

D A M N, I love it here. 🥹 150+ rides later and I still have the same sentiments.☺️ there is truly nothing like being in a dark room, hearing a song I hadn’t heard in a while (or ever!), on bikes that go nowhere while I ride to the beat of the music and not overthink it. as @gremlingrandma once told me: “less think, more blink.” something about the energy in that room that just fits all the good things together! you’ll just have to come see for yourself! 👀

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@evnder2.0 @troyer_ @breezthru | so fun to play, laugh, and stare into your souls while I ~attempted~ to have a serious face. 😆 also @thisisdizzle for capturing all of this! you are soOoOOo cool! 🤘🏼

@itsabunderfullife, 🫂 thank you for having me in this special merch moment and to come along on this ride (pun intended, always 😝).

COME GET THIS MERCH! Then, let’s take photos together bc duh. 🙂‍↕️✌🏼 taken in Be Here Now // seattle,wa by @nicoleannn

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2 years ago

Hobipalooza 2022 | What a time. 💜 Taking chances, being brave, and feeling every single feeling/emotion seems to be the theme within me and surrounding me. So grateful for this experience and those I share these moments with, whether it’s people I’ve known for sometime to people I’ve been able to meet for the first time.

@btstarotproject @bethelmahoney @briannawithluv @bangtanastrology, y’all are the best 🥲 survivor x super tuna, pony x black swan, and all the bad bunny songs were just 🥰 it really looks like I had an out of body experience, I look like a hologram next to Bethel 😂

@varnishseattle Emily, thank you for my cute nails 🥰💜 it’s always a good time with you ♒️♉️🤪🌀

Slide 4 just 🫠 melts me, probably why it went blurry after he said we’re fckin crazy. 😵‍💫 Hobi, I am so proud of you! I didn’t know it was possible, but I love and respect you so much more. I hope you and the rest of the members know how fckin AMAZING y’all are. I cannot wait to see what else is in store from you and the rest of the members. What a time to be alive in this lifetime, in this universe.✨ How lucky am I (are we) to live and experience all of this. 🥹 This is the type of experience that affirms want I want, and that’s to lean into my safety zone [No one does it like Jimin, for real. That man literally FLEW ACROSS THE EARTH. 🥺] and to stay as close to the things that make ME happy and know that I am in control of my own life. “Bahala ako sa buhay ko” as what my hat reads.

I will never ever forget the feeling of seeing Hobi literally POP UP out of the box (ode to MJ, yes, I see it!) I muted the audio bc its literally me screaming my lungs out. 😂 Prepping for this trip, I knew it would be legendary, BUT WOW. Give Hobi his flowers everyday, the man has captivated me all over again. 💐🫰🏼

Shout out to my partner @gillyfred for video footage and letting @jaqulynk practice the night before Hobi’s set. LET’S BURN! 💀❤️‍🔥🔥😆

Until next time, Bangtan. 💜 Wherever and whenever. 😌🛬🌎🚞 apobangpo ♾️ taken in Chicago, Illinois by @nicoleannn

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4 years ago

level 34 side quests ✨

tysm @janelle.tattoos, it was such an honor to receive this from you. 🥹 [april 27] holds so much meaning, both personally and historically. lapu lapu is indeed ICONIC! also, I appreciate the laugh about how filipino calves and the riding boot season just did not mix. 😂 you’re doing something really special here and I am so excited for you! 🫶🏼🧋 taken in Gemini Moon by @nicoleannn

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2 years ago

level 34✨, hopefully not so much on ~hard mode~🤞🏼

today, I had an opportunity to honor my maternal grandfather at @arestingplace.sea (bc he and I share the same birthday 🥰). thank you tatay for showing love in the ways you knew how: reminding me to sit down and just eat, be incredibly patient with me despite the language barrier (bc I can’t speak/understand tagalog fluently), the way you’d ask me to quiz you on English and say “good is today” when you were studying for the citizenship test, and continuing to guide me in this life, even when you are no longer physically here. 🐦‍⬛ it’s been almost 8 years. i miss you everyday, every. single. day.

(tatay means father in tagalog, but he preferred that I called him tatay instead of lolo (which translates to grandfather). tbh, it made sense bc he was in a lot of ways, more like a father to me growing up.)

thank you to everyone for the birthday greetings, i (try) not to take those moments for granted as i’m continuously learning to open my heart a little more, even though it’s a risk to be vulnerable. 🥹 here’s to more learning, unlearning, and re-membering. by @nicoleannn

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2 years ago

learning how joy (can and tbh, has to) coexist with f_ckery. by @nicoleannn

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3 years ago