Alli

I modelled professionally for the first time when I started university… before you read you must know that I share this story as a testimony of Jesus in my life.

I had always wanted to model.
The issue? Throughout high school I was insecure and I had a preconceived notion of beauty that I felt I could never fit. Once I began modeling it gave me a new confidence. I signed to an agency, modelled professionally, and collaborated in shoots. For once I didn’t hide behind insecurity.

Earlier during this past Fall semester I experienced a moment of pure fear, from this my acne worsened, my health got complicated, and I wept in fear for months. My acne didn’t make me unclean, my emotions didn’t make me broken; i was purely battling severe anxiety that tainted the way I viewed myself and this world. I hid behind makeup and a fake smile while I felt like I was crumbling into nothing.

It is now 6 months later. And I proclaim the work of the Lord in my life. He has showed me how to seek Joy again. With prayer, acne treatment, professional help, a new church, my girls Bible study, and finding gratitude, I have experienced a true testament of the Lord and His goodness. I am stronger spirituality, my acne is basically gone, I can walk out of the house without makeup and not feel awful, and I have a new hope and gratitude for a beautiful future. Don’t get me wrong, I still find myself weeping but I am reminded shortly after that there is a GOOD God despite fear and pain. I still wrestle in fear and anxiety, but I also know I have a loving God beside me at all times. And so I have gratitude for this unfolding testimony.

So half a year later I can step in front of a camera confidently again and make art.

Shot by @fotobycsaba

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