Sasha Torrado (Velasco)

Last week we celebrated your first birthday. 🥲 This ain’t my first rodeo, and yet it still slipped by faster than I could keep up. 🥹 There’s something so mind-boggling about you and the way you mirror Noah. My two book ends. The way you were both born on your due dates (which is so rare), and only one week apart. My sweet summer babes. It was so hard processing all of it at once - my first baby turning 9 and my last baby turning 1. I didn’t make a huge celebration out of it (although you completely deserved one), because I think I was in denial 🫠 and it was all happening at once.

My sweet Shilo, I love you more than I could ever express. You came and changed me for the better. Opened my eyes to so much, took me out of auto pilot, and helped me to truly embody the woman I want to become. My incredible wild pregnancy and free birth (which I’m still writing because how do you even put that into words!?). You taught me how to trust myself and my Creator in profound ways. Shattered the matrix I was living in, and helped me realize everything I needed was already within me (2 Peter 1:3). Youre helping me dissolve my constant need for approval and permission. And you put a stop to the hamster wheel of constant outsourcing. Like each one of my babies you exposed and healed parts of me that were hidden.

You are pure sunshine and joy, the sweetest surprise from the Lord. You are so wild, passionate and free! You are so strong and so bright. You’re always one step ahead of the game because your brothers and sis are practically a cheat code to life haha. Such a sweet and happy baby. My barnacle boy, teaching me to surrender all over again - to a year of spitting up, endless night nursing, and car seat hating 😅 A year of pure love and light. Growing my capacity and courage. This year you helped me do more with four than I ever did with two. Thank you for all the oxytocin highs, the wet kisses and the way you light up when you look at me. 🥹 Always a little bittersweet saying good bye to the baby stage, but so so excited to get to watch you grow up and get to know you more. This song, your absolute fave for me to sing. Happy Birthday Shilito, ILY ❤️‍🔥