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Posted On: July 23rd 2026, 02:27 pm
Talking about Busyfingers is hard for me. I think since he passed, I carry this weight on my shoulders of doing what in my mind is keeping the culture and community together and I know I'm not alone when I think about these things and it's no secret that I always try to move in a way that I think ultimately would make him proud but the hardest thing for me honestly, trying to move forward without him being here in the physical since... in all honesty, him minus my parents are the main people that I wish could see the growth I've had as a person and as a creative.
I remember him always wishing that the "Beat Meet" events was always in his mind intended to be UK equivalent of what the LA "Low End Theory" events were. At the time, i understood this as being a event that producers of all levels could come and showcase their work and be themselves but as i got older and wiser, i started to also understand that it was not about a building or a event but more so a community.
At times, I reflect and wonder if I would be who am without us meeting. I have friends I adore but I immediately found my tribe.
I have a secret. Every year, I write you a letter and I keep it to myself because im filled with a lot of feelings and it's the only healthy way I know how to put what I feel into context and as I work on being the most visible version of myself, its important for the roots to be tended to as much as what has bloomed. Our culture and community has grown so much and everyone is growing so much but in a era of history being rewritten, I can not allow what you have done to not be felt. And so, this is a weight I carry that is neither light or heavy but it is felt and carried with pride and joy.
I feel a lot all the time and I don't know how not to but today, I'm gonna be celebrating with loved ones. Your loved ones. The mission has not changed. I am still aiming to be the best but not just because you told me I could, but because i also believe in myself too.
Ill guess I'll leave this here by saying. Thank you for everything. And you were right. No point in being a "Yes man". My life became better knowing you.
It will always be 42 forever and Oddboys forever.
Love.
I remember him always wishing that the "Beat Meet" events was always in his mind intended to be UK equivalent of what the LA "Low End Theory" events were. At the time, i understood this as being a event that producers of all levels could come and showcase their work and be themselves but as i got older and wiser, i started to also understand that it was not about a building or a event but more so a community.
At times, I reflect and wonder if I would be who am without us meeting. I have friends I adore but I immediately found my tribe.
I have a secret. Every year, I write you a letter and I keep it to myself because im filled with a lot of feelings and it's the only healthy way I know how to put what I feel into context and as I work on being the most visible version of myself, its important for the roots to be tended to as much as what has bloomed. Our culture and community has grown so much and everyone is growing so much but in a era of history being rewritten, I can not allow what you have done to not be felt. And so, this is a weight I carry that is neither light or heavy but it is felt and carried with pride and joy.
I feel a lot all the time and I don't know how not to but today, I'm gonna be celebrating with loved ones. Your loved ones. The mission has not changed. I am still aiming to be the best but not just because you told me I could, but because i also believe in myself too.
Ill guess I'll leave this here by saying. Thank you for everything. And you were right. No point in being a "Yes man". My life became better knowing you.
It will always be 42 forever and Oddboys forever.
Love.
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