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Posted On: July 24th 2026, 12:11 am
I got broken up with last week, and in my reflections since, I’ve realized that the OCD from my youth never left me; it just got quieter. Here is my essay on listening to my body.
“My body told me the answer, but I chose to ignore it. The signs came in endless fatigue and a visit with a familiar friend – my self-diagnosed OCD. I have two friends with OCD, and when they describe their present symptoms, it doesn’t feel like the experience resonates with me. But in this last spiral, I was quickly reminded that just because your situation looks different, it doesn’t mean that your compulsions don’t exist. Perhaps I was just ignoring them, hoping that they would fade soon, and convinced that my constant need for reassurance was more a personality trait than a compulsion.”
“My body told me the answer, but I chose to ignore it. The signs came in endless fatigue and a visit with a familiar friend – my self-diagnosed OCD. I have two friends with OCD, and when they describe their present symptoms, it doesn’t feel like the experience resonates with me. But in this last spiral, I was quickly reminded that just because your situation looks different, it doesn’t mean that your compulsions don’t exist. Perhaps I was just ignoring them, hoping that they would fade soon, and convinced that my constant need for reassurance was more a personality trait than a compulsion.”
Comments (13)
13 hours agoelsabetmengistu
i understand 10000% and am in your shoes as well 💕 i hope you find a balance and remission for the OCD. you deserve a love and career that feeds you (even in the face of uncertainty)
2 days agomixtmedia
that is SO much to manage at once - I hope you’re able to give yourself to space to feel and to grieve all of the things. sending you love and understanding. ♥️
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