Sinyee Kerk 🌼

"What do you do for sports?" my massage therapist asked, while working on my ultra-tight neck and shoulder.

I laughed. "Not much. I hike a lot, but I guess that’s not related to my neck and shoulder."

She paused.

"Yours is one of the hardest shoulders I've worked on. The last person who had shoulders like yours was a professional baseball player."

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That conversation happened a few years ago.

I remember feeling puzzled. And underneath it, a deep sense of sadness.

It took me on a journey of exploring the relationship between my body, mind, emotions, soul, and psyche — through meditation, plant medicine, bodywork, and coaching.

Over time, I developed what feels like an inquiry, a way of listening to what my body is trying to tell me.

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In the last few days, I'd been feeling some tension around my neck, right shoulder, upper back, and arm.

So I listened. I sat with it, inquired into it, offered it loving kindness and massage.

Then, in a coaching session, I saw something more clearly: a deeper pattern underneath it all.

I met a protective part of myself — one that has tried his very best to keep me safe by managing, filtering, and controlling how another part of me felt, expressed herself, and was perceived.

We had a conversation. There was gratitude, appreciation, forgiveness... An inner reconciliation and reunion.

At the end of the session, I noticed something.
The tension was gone.
My neck and shoulders felt soft again.

What a beautiful reminder of something I've come to trust through my own journey: the tension and stress we carry in our bodies can be messengers.

Sometimes they're asking for attention and care.
And sometimes, they're pointing us toward a part of ourselves that wants to be heard, understood, reconciled, integrated back into relationship with the rest of us.

The body can be a gateway to the deeper aspects of our being.

This is part of the work I love — creating space to slow down, listen inward, and meet yourself at a deeper level.

I currently offer Rebalancing bodywork in Vancouver and 1:1 coaching over Zoom. If something in you is curious about this work, DM me. 💛