SEC

I start off by saying, "a tiny bit of context" and then I go and give almost all of the context
Brevity is not my strong suit

I am feeling almost every emotion right now and the last month has been a tidal wave of feelings bottled from the last 31 years

I am a full advocate for mental health services but I wanted to share what my journey was in trying to navigate the system during a full mental health crisis

Maybe I should have lied and told the AAC nurse I was feeling suicidal
But I wasn't having those feelings, even during the peak of my mania
I was manic as fuck and paranoid to the point of being delusional

My SNRIs had been basically poisoning me for the last ten fucking years
I was at the AAC in 2017 and all the psychiatrist did was double my dose of the SNRI with absolutely no advice, that I can remember
It took me two years to get back down to 50mg, when my goal was to get completely off them
The process was brutal
Now I am so thankfully free from Desvenlafaxine and hopeful that my current mix of medication will work as intended

I know this might seem like a lot of information to post but I mainly just want to make an update for all my friends who have been worried about me during my involuntary commitment at VGH
This year I've had a lot of friendships broken and a lot of people take advantage of me but it just makes me appreciate the friends who are still here that much more
🙏❤️🙏