Tariq Harrison | AuDHD Fitness Coach

Yes this is content but this isn’t content. I think the most persistent pattern in my life is not knowing I need help. Not knowing how to ask for help because “I’ll figure it out” and I’m really good at that. Independence not because I want to be big macho warrior man who handles it all on his own but because my life evidence says that asking for help means I’ve failed. It means I didn’t do enough. That’s the weight I carry with me, as an adult, knowing the general signs of success, healthy relationship, financial stability, family, working a career I love. All those ideals are my standard. I set them as a standard and when I’m missing the mark I blame no one but me. This pressure builds and builds and then those thoughts come up “well you know, you wouldn’t have to hit any marks if you weren’t here” that’s the logic at the crux. The difficulty ends if there’s nothing else to do. That mindset is not gonna help me but it’s been a mindset that runs as soon as things get too difficult for me to rationalize.

Recently I noticed my thinking will go to “no one else is doing what you are doing”. There’s no one like me. Yes there are people similar but me. Tariq Harrison. There’s not another one. I can’t take myself away from what I’m meant to do. My purpose isn’t clear yet. I’m only just now learning how to move in this world as a neurodivergent person. I have so much more to experience so much more to learn. So many more people to help. I need to be here and do so you. That’s all. That’s the message.

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